oh how do i remember my name,
as i still want to change it,
desperately,
how does one remember one's self,
when one is tired of them,
oh lord hold my hand,
for its the last i try,
last wine that i drink in there,
and last dream that i have in here,
forgive me lord,
for the dreams,
the feet and the heat,
all the rape fantasies,
for i will try again