They never tell you how fresh the past stays in your mind
How old friendships linger like a phantom limb
Sometimes so painful you can't sleep
And other times it's a dull ache,
Just enough to remind you of what's gone
I look back and I remember I used to say
I had no regrets
I always said that,
As if every action I'd ever done was the right one
And looking back,
I wish it felt the same
But I'm full of regrets
For people who hurt me that I let
For last words I never said
For the people I hurt
And for the last words I couldn't stop
Looking at the future now it feels bleak
Why does 25 feel like 85?
Why do I feel as though I'm losing my luster
Stuck at dead ends where all my wants and dreams
Just feel like I'm running out of time
For deadlines I don't even have
Just ones I've self made
Is it any wonder I don't write anymore?
I think I've forgotten how