You have lunch
with a fly.
Standing in the street,
you allow the breeze
to take over.
You watch the mountains,
as much as they watch you
standing still in time.
At a garden, you sit for hours
in unperturbed silence
as the finches inch closer and closer,
your eyes becoming
more and more
like bark.
You pass everyone on the street
with a small smile on your face,
without saying hello.
Anger comes to you
but you do not answer the door.
It becomes easier to breathe,
easier to laugh,
easier to be.
The high that fills you
is non-narcotic
but the air is clear,
the sky dazzles,
each cloud mind-boggling,
and each mountain peak
a tiny heaven.
Your lover long gone,
is a recent memory. And she returns
to you with an electricity.
She becomes
all that she never was,
but always was.
It is saddening,
but it is also beautiful
because it existed.
Even your enemies
take on a certain glow,
and emanate eternal qualities.
There is no reason
for all of this,
it just happens to you one day
when you finally begin to make
all the choices in your life,
even the ones
you thought
you couldn't
make.