**I've been trying so hard to not try so hard
I was afraid I had forgotten how you take your love
or how to forget the ghost with no eyes
I've never actually seen
and that he may have taken your love for a spin
new glow;
checking your hair and makeup every other minute
in MY mirror though
that walk, and new vicky secrets sets
that hold you like they've been built with your curves in mind
I panicked
I couldn't remember the pass code to your belly laughs
to your fingertips, to your deepest confidences
to your sweetest dreams... to your water well
I couldn't remember
you told me it was his birth year
spitefully, in a heated beef
I've been trying so hard to not try so hard
I was afraid I had forgotten you take your love
the only way your heart knows how;
black, no sugar
I'm anxious
Nobody supposed to be here... you said
I keep waiting for the other heel to drop
I beast with word gods, I'm a monster
but your cat's got my tongue?
Imagine that
I've been trying so hard to not try so hard
I couldn't remember the pass code
to the pride I tried to live above
I forgot that I selectively forget
self-destructive notes to self
“fucked up people fuck up people, no lie"
No matter who.
You can't believe their mistrustful mouths
And just when you decide to accidentally forget
they remind you that they can't help it
You are who you are... you are who you love
I take mine with caramel and whipped cream by the way
You never asked
I've been trying so hard to not try so hard
And I need to be
way too cautious on this brokedown joyride**