A shot and some salt as the ball drops.
I can't believe it all happened.
And I can't believe that I was on the verge of tears.
This heartbeat never stops.
I drank the fire, I breathed in the smoke.
But I didn't breathe in you, and that is what made me choke.
So many people caught up in connecting,
Yet I felt so distant, caught up in recollecting.
My life is not the one that I knew two years ago,
My soul is altogether different, no longer white like snow.
But I was never pure, I have been damned from the beginning,
I am still thinking about last night,
I am so scared that I still want you,
My world may still be spinning.
To forget is a beautiful thing,
This delicate intoxication is a new way to sing.
But no matter what I couldn't forget that I wasn't close to you,
All the fire couldn't burn away the knowing that "Us" is no longer true.
I just want to be ok with whatever this is,
I just want to be close without having to be his.
I wanted to forget and maybe our feelings could be enough,
But nothing happened last night and I just got drunk.