There are no words for this
It's not a simple emotion
Such as sadness
It is deep, complicated, manipulating
They call it depression
But that is just a name
It is
Hands hidden deep in sleeves
Dark circles accompanying dull eyes
Cold sweats
Twisted sheets
Nights haunted by vivid dreams
But mostly
It is a heavy heavy weight
Sitting on my shoulders
Making it hard to move, think, speak
When all that occupies my mind
Is the burden
And how it dulls my every sense
And instinct to keep living