Dreaming

Everyone was out being jolly and happy I sat there in living my biggest fear Being completely alone with no one willing to lend an ear Feeling like I have lost everything All I had were my thoughts and my own ears Telling myself I let down my family and peers Letting her get away was my biggest mistake I ever made She was with a guy that didn't deserve to see her tears Seeing her everyday was a living nightmare Because I couldn't take away her hidden tears Everyday I tried my hardest to shovel my feelings into a shallow grave Just to have them resurface by the water from my own tears Everyday was a nightmare I was bleeding internally while being kick down by people That I thought actually cared I tried my hardest to hold back my tears But that night I cried for the first time out of feeling completely alone Asking myself what could've I done Why am I the one crying these tears I never deserved Why am I so alone when all I try to do is bring joy to the world I was mourning my own death for so long I forgot how to live I continued walking forward in this nightmarish state I was doing everything to make myself proud just to see light In such a dimly lit place in my mind What a dreary and dreadful nightmare I was living But something reached out and caught me One day my dreams were no longer about loneliness or fear I looked back at all those nightmares and I saw a different version of me I climbed mountains without realizing it I killed many demons that were so much bigger than me I was started feeling light and cherished Cherished by my peers Cherished by my family Cherished by my friends Cherished by her Now I am scared to wake up because everything feels like a dream

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