slowly i learn
to push away the thoughts
of blood and bleeding
or pills and puking
of starving and loose jeans
of tragedies to other people unseen
slowly i tell myself
ill be okay
maybe
slowly maybe
i learn to recover
drinking and drowning
slowly i fall back
maybe i cant
slowly maybe
im stuck after all
slowly i pull myself
back up
i learn to shower
and eat and sleep
and exist again
my body destroyed
more and more each time
slowly maybe
i learn to love scars
and stretch marks
and chub
cheerful faces fall
slowly maybe i fall
back
but
slowly maybe
i learn to survive
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 9:52 AM UTC
slowly i learn
to push away the thoughts
of blood and bleeding
or pills and puking
of starving and loose jeans
of tragedies to other people unseen
slowly i tell myself
ill be okay
maybe
slowly maybe
i learn to recover
drinking and drowning
slowly i fall back
maybe i cant
slowly maybe
im stuck after all
slowly i pull myself
back up
i learn to shower
and eat and sleep
and exist again
my body destroyed
more and more each time
slowly maybe
i learn to love scars
and stretch marks
and chub
cheerful faces fall
slowly maybe i fall
back
but
slowly maybe
i learn to survive