Do you know the feeling, you know how it felt to really be happy, you just forgot how you did it. And maybe it was because of the people that surrounded you, or maybe it was yourself making the choice to be happy. But all you know is that it's too damn hard in this moment to get there. Even though you try so hard, you feel like you're going no where. And all you want to do is escape the feeling but you can't. So you're just constantly frustrated with yourself and just. Sad. And you don't want to be, and you hate yourself for it. Like what are you doing why are you letting yourself live like this it isn't good! But you just don't know.