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I'm ashamed to believe I thought you had answers to questions I had to ask But learning of you, I've questioned you more And now I’m wondering why What do I do? Can I pay the price when you say it’s due? The tricks of the trade that I thought I knew You've seen them all because they were no use But despite all the conclusions that I've come up to You've defied every one and there's only one left That I can accept I’m ashamed This firm assumption I can always defend Till the end I'm ashamed For what I've taken from you to use Because I’d take again and again I'm afraid to see you now Avoiding every glance to make it safe somehow Detoured and yet again, I’m cornered Because you're at my every turn And I’m wondering how How did you come true? For what have you've gotten this close to me to do? And have you gotten what you needed to? Now this push's come to shove, still I lean on you There's nothing else that I've come to trust But you've never lie to me, yet I knew That you’ll betray my instincts again I'm afraid This constant fear that I've gained from you You're gone, but even then I’m afraid You'll come to collect when my price is due And I'm running again and again I know there’s no use; I would have never won You’re far too kind to chase me every time I run The days never end But now I’m giving myself back to you To end this eternity Despite all you could've done to collect me I'm ashamed I'm afraid I'm afraid I'm ashamed The mongrels had come to pick me apart But then I had learned of the darkness at heart I'm ashamed The snow of that day where you've carried my will The dead are still scattered and the earth barren still I'm afraid You've come to collect, yet I still run away I thought I could live out the last of my days I'm ashamed Here I surrender and my heart is my key My life's torn asunder, in hell we will meet I’m afraid © 2014
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Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 5:44 AM UTC
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I'm ashamed to believe I thought you had answers to questions I had to ask But learning of you, I've questioned you more And now I’m wondering why What do I do? Can I pay the price when you say it’s due? The tricks of the trade that I thought I knew You've seen them all because they were no use But despite all the conclusions that I've come up to You've defied every one and there's only one left That I can accept I’m ashamed This firm assumption I can always defend Till the end I'm ashamed For what I've taken from you to use Because I’d take again and again I'm afraid to see you now Avoiding every glance to make it safe somehow Detoured and yet again, I’m cornered Because you're at my every turn And I’m wondering how How did you come true? For what have you've gotten this close to me to do? And have you gotten what you needed to? Now this push's come to shove, still I lean on you There's nothing else that I've come to trust But you've never lie to me, yet I knew That you’ll betray my instincts again I'm afraid This constant fear that I've gained from you You're gone, but even then I’m afraid You'll come to collect when my price is due And I'm running again and again I know there’s no use; I would have never won You’re far too kind to chase me every time I run The days never end But now I’m giving myself back to you To end this eternity Despite all you could've done to collect me I'm ashamed I'm afraid I'm afraid I'm ashamed The mongrels had come to pick me apart But then I had learned of the darkness at heart I'm ashamed The snow of that day where you've carried my will The dead are still scattered and the earth barren still I'm afraid You've come to collect, yet I still run away I thought I could live out the last of my days I'm ashamed Here I surrender and my heart is my key My life's torn asunder, in hell we will meet I’m afraid © 2014
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Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 5:44 AM UTC
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