I am completely tired of stressing myself out over not being smart enough to know something. I think too much, my head constantly hurts, I feel absolutely worthless when I don't understand something, most of the time when I ask for help no one wants to help me... so I stop asking...only reason I'm still in school now is because it was my goal to be the smartest out of all my family, the state makes me go to school and I don't want to be a disappointment to my mom or my family....or myself. But I feel I have failed. So I sit here crying not knowing what to do...I decide to give my brain a rest...I refuse to think any more... I decide to enjoy life as the world slowly ends and I slowly die.My brain will not exist 'til further notice... You can't learn to live from a book.