strangers gathered around a table
talking and laughing
smiling at each other like they have a secret
an inside joke
a bond
they are surrounding me
the cheerful mood is intoxicating
makes me feel as if everything will be okay
the mirage shatters
the illusion disappears
I do not belong here
I have never belonged here
I have always been on the outside
looking in
I often catch myself wanting
and wishing
to be in
to feel at peace
and happy
is all I have ever wanted
to be included
but I will always be on the outside of everything
and never truly belong
Dec 24, 2017
Dec 24, 2017 at 5:05 PM UTC
strangers gathered around a table
talking and laughing
smiling at each other like they have a secret
an inside joke
a bond
they are surrounding me
the cheerful mood is intoxicating
makes me feel as if everything will be okay
the mirage shatters
the illusion disappears
I do not belong here
I have never belonged here
I have always been on the outside
looking in
I often catch myself wanting
and wishing
to be in
to feel at peace
and happy
is all I have ever wanted
to be included
but I will always be on the outside of everything
and never truly belong
family makes me sad sometimes and I can't write anything good when I'm this anxious and upset but I will post the garbage anyway
