All I ever wanted
was a moment where
tomorrow and yesterday
didn't exist
I wasn't chasing my slippery hope
and you didn't manifest scenarios
Prosperity was around the block
For a minute
I saw the sky as it was
For a minute I could breathe
the air that was meant
for you and me
What have we been hooked on?
Songs sound better when you hurt
and I never want you to be capable
of singing this song as well as me
Do you remember when I'd lay in bed
for hours on end
and you'd pretend
to be dead with me
and our bodies laid soullessly
our thoughts connected
our hearts in sync?
I didn't know
those would be the constant memories
I'd sob most over
And I'd remind myself,
day in and day out,
when I'd turn to my left
feeling the cold dent
on my lonely mattress
You said,"You did this to yourself."
I did, you're right
God, I was scared
I was petrified
I left myself with only spite
when I had the courage
in the drawer of my nightstand
and I chose to look the other way
Now, I am in an abusive relationship
with my loud, stubborn ego
It's time to stop grocery shopping