Feast or famine.
The dry summer or monsoon season.
It’s not as though he had
murdered me.
That would be easier to
prove. There would be
no hiding
the blood of it.
And how I did bleed—
years later,
red all over it.
Improper.
Fuel for the fire.
Combustible.
But nothing trembles
as I weigh the being
of my existence against
what stoppage.
Order or chaos.
Black or white.
What has been spoilt
rotten can never be
golden. These are
the questions I ask myself:
Am I loved? Do I
love? Can I love?
While there is the story
he tells himself, reassuringly:
It was just sex.
It was just sex.