Everything that's going on around me ,
isn't what I want .
Things aren't going as planned ,
and all of this sucks ,
and fucks with my head .
I can't do this anymore ,
no ! not anymore !
I've got secrets ,
that makes me hold my breathe all the time .
It feels like I'm trapped ,
and this trap is my past ,
which is stopping me from moving forward .
There's something really wrong with me .
I don't know how to express ,
but keeping it all inside ,
hurts a lot sometimes .
Till now , I've just figured out one thing ,
for me , writing is a great release .
I don't know how to deal with all of this shit .
So , I put my feelings into my poetry .
To be honest , now ,I spend a lot of my time ,
playing with these words in my mind .
It don't feel the same anymore ,
no ! it's not easy but also , not that dark here ,
I think it's all getting better ,
because I can see the light .
I don't know if I've got my shit together or not ,
it's still heavy but I guess now I know how to carry it properly .
Well ! In between all of this ,
I've found a piece of me ,
and I guess that's the best thing .
I'm blessed to be here ,
and thankful for the person I'm becoming .