It’s all a scam.
From the multiple apps to the ‘choice’ to switch between the eight, it’s all a scam, rewiring my brain and disallowing me to connect with the present, my ability to create, my desire to want to create.
It’s all scam.
And I realise that with every vice I have called my own, i was looking for the one thing that God has already given me, ‘SANITY’.
Peace of mind in a world of chaos.
I tell myself time and time again, that I want to be different, that i want to focus, I want to study, I want to bring those ideas into reality but then I am left and the end of the bed.
Laptop faced upwards on the right, phone right behind it, beckoning me to come grab it, to caress it in my hand, whilst it dismantles my brain, and yes, yes, most times I allow it to do it’s cause.
I forget who I am what he has called me to be, what I am capable of.
I cling onto these labels, saying that it is in you I move, it’s in you I breathe, it’s in you I have my being, whilst in God, I already have that.
I love the idea of being able to digest, to break apart, to add more to and I am here fully seated, and i realise that that the things that I love can never bring me peace of mind, I truly realise this, I have , I do.
Time and time again, I remind myself, that it is useless to cling onto to the materials of this world as moth will always destroy and dirt will always cause decay to them, but here I lie, here I stay.
On the very device that draws me further away from you.
No, it’s my very own heart that draws me further away from you and I’m done.
I’m done with all the cursing and cussing, the procrastination and constant comparison. The desire to be better to do better but never doing anything.
I’m done; I can’t take it anymore.
So today, I dedicate my life to you, cause “I am a living sacrifice, I am a living sacrifice and I can’t take it lightly, I AM A LIVING SACRIFICE, YOU DON’T TAKE IT LIGHTLY.”
“Mind, Body, Soul, have it all…
Have it all.”