*I’d stay up all night to avoid the monsters in my dreams,
I didn’t want another night gasping for air,
-afraid to sleep.
It was too much to hide in silence,
There was something crying aloud,
I tried to overcome it,
-I kept the fears to myself.
But most days my mind was cluttered,
And my heart was heavy
The sharp pains in my chest only caused me to be angry.
I wanted a release,
I knew what I needed to do,
But I kept killing myself,
So I wouldn’t lose you.*