this filth which I can't for the life of me
rinse away
it stays with me like a scar
public shame to suffocate my progress
in this heart of mine
which looks best when it's broken
if you put your hand out you may find love
in these thorns which stole the space
when lips which don't belong to me
forget their rhythm
their words are laid bare
stripped of alternate interpretation
the skin I live in
the only home to shelter
these worries
like planets in a protective galaxy
inside this independence
when you're happy it's called solitude
and when you're sad it's loneliness
a space so familiar and yet
I'm afraid to enter
to realize I left my shadow
in the sunlight
every second my pillow denies
me sleep
sadness creeps further into the scene
a version of me which doesn't
deserve such devotion
a mask of filth I've worn too long
convincing the world there's nothing to see
convincing me it's a losing battle
when there was never a war to begin with
that these tears are permanent rain
when there isn't a cloud in the sky
just a dawn waiting to inspire the day
a simple future dancing to its own harmony