the day you left
i died
well not actually
but part of me did
it’s like all that was in my head was you
and now it’s not just my head but it’s everywhere
i was always scared to die
because i don’t want to be forgettable
your not
i pinky promise
our memories play through my head
the way you hugged me the first day i came back from the hospital
nutella sticks in your kitchen
watching sad movies in your basement
you crying because of the dog
i keep all your letters on a wall
and i still wear our matching necklaces
anytime i see connor bedard i think of the hockey games and our claim to fame
anytime i see fries i think of how your eyes would light up at the sight of him
i look at v and all i can see is you flipping him off
i here your voice when the sick comes on on my shuffle
on our playlist
i see you in the pins i have saved to my pinterest board about our future
i can feel you when i write poetry
when i debate with someone
when i cry
you are everywhere yet nowhere and i can’t help but wonder
how life could be so cruel
never will i ever love anyone as much as you
you are my reason
always and forever, mema