To the girl who turned down the request to be my girlfriend:
You told me secrets no one else knows, about your childhood and the struggles of abuse, multiple suicide attempts, and a failed engagement. I understood you, and I wanted us to be more than just friends.
You wanted to be more than just friends with me too, you said so.
It still hurts to know you threw me away despite what we had.
All I wanted was the honesty I gave you, reciprocated. But you couldn't tell me all you truly felt, instead 1 year later I learn that you did indeed love me but I was moving too fast- why couldn't you have just told me that? Instead you couldn't even tell me to my face, but sent 4 text messages and we're through. Shallow. All-time low. I was so sure you were the one. Coincidence? We're both still single and alone full a year later, and I've never been more content to be single. Last April was a different story, we had a genuine relationship but you never gave me the chance because you let irrational fear drive us apart. There's no looking back now - I'm just a lost cause it's all I'll ever be. TM