i cant look at myself
every time i see myself, i think of you
and how you felt
in those purple fairy lights
at 1am.
i cant look at myself
because im constantly reminded
of every touch
every moan, each shiver
last night.
i cant look at myself
my eye keeps trailing off
to the hickey on my chest
the purple bruise
it marks me.
i cant look at myself
because my stomach hurts
when i think of you
im so sorry
i was selfish.