i keep falling in love with boys
who have bright blue eyes,
who have smiles that glitter
and gleam like something terrible
and sweet, brutal and mean
i think about it a lot -
these boys that circle me,
one old and one new,
one golden, one silver,
both wrapped in shades of blue
navy and cerulean;
it's a drastic difference, i know
but they're literally as different as day and night,
one open and clear,
one vast and cold
the gold one was perfect, in all possible ways
he sang and played instruments from a-z,
he strummed chords and crafted melodies
like apollo in the sky,
immortally ignorant of real life
the other one, the silver one,
he's quite the gloomy character
he likes it loud and rough, wears black
and looks so fucking tough,
my heart takes off on a high paced run
and yet i find qualities
that remind me of the other,
the way they've torn my words away,
scattered them on the pages,
ripping thoughts from my lips and fingers
they make me like the dam, burst
and overflowing,
both boys are so distant,
too much of a leap,
yet i can't help my fascination with those i cannot reach
so yes, these boys are different
the prep and the loner
but alike, they've stolen my heart
and those blue, engulfing eyes
have dragged me continuously under