I created this image in my mind that was not you
I loved it, but this love was not true
it was an escape from the emptiness I was feeling inside
it was a barrier to hide
my true feelings of loneliness and despair
the real you and me get along fine
when we are together I can feel the sunshine
but when we are not you become a different character in my mind
and for reality I am blind
I want to be together, it's a dream that cannot be
because I am messed up again, and unable to see
dark thoughts have taken over my brain
and I listen to them with no restrain
because of this I messed up a love so pure
because of this I am completely unsure
of who I am and what life is
I am lost once again in the jungle in my head
unable to express all the things that should be said
blurting out all the darkness instead
I am not healthy, I am in pain
I have a deep sadness inside me that knows no shame
it has taken over my whole being, that can be full of joy
but is unable now, because my mind is aiming to destroy
every meaningful relationship that could be
because I can't be me