I will see him tomorrow
And we will restore the status quo
Because I can't sort through the mess in my head
Can't find a topic that won't let the worry show.
I will see him tomorrow
And this heartbroken poetry will cease
Because I'm better at controlling what I want
When it's physically in my reach.
I will see him tomorrow
And I'll see her image hazily beside him
And I'll put down my metaphorical sword
Because it's not a fight I can win.
I will see him tomorrow
And my heart will see them both together
But I won't say a single undue word
Won't even ask if he's doing better.
I will see him tomorrow
Like nothing ever went wrong
And I will wrap my arms around him
And remember his favorite songs.
I will see him tomorrow
But I will not break down and cry
Because, beyond the hurt, I understand
The ever-present want to die.
I will see him tomorrow
And, my previous poems be ******
I'll keep my mouth, heart, and mind shut
As I cope the only way I can.
I will see him tomorrow
And reach out for another
Because I never had and I never will have
The right to claim or tether.
I will see him tomorrow
And I won't speak of Summer or Fall
I'll remain detached though I am not
Though I'm not calm or collected at all.
I will see him tomorrow
And she will not be there in person
And I will not yearn or reach for either
If only because I love them.
Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 7:34 PM UTC
I will see him tomorrow
And we will restore the status quo
Because I can't sort through the mess in my head
Can't find a topic that won't let the worry show.
I will see him tomorrow
And this heartbroken poetry will cease
Because I'm better at controlling what I want
When it's physically in my reach.
I will see him tomorrow
And I'll see her image hazily beside him
And I'll put down my metaphorical sword
Because it's not a fight I can win.
I will see him tomorrow
And my heart will see them both together
But I won't say a single undue word
Won't even ask if he's doing better.
I will see him tomorrow
Like nothing ever went wrong
And I will wrap my arms around him
And remember his favorite songs.
I will see him tomorrow
But I will not break down and cry
Because, beyond the hurt, I understand
The ever-present want to die.
I will see him tomorrow
And, my previous poems be ******
I'll keep my mouth, heart, and mind shut
As I cope the only way I can.
I will see him tomorrow
And reach out for another
Because I never had and I never will have
The right to claim or tether.
I will see him tomorrow
And I won't speak of Summer or Fall
I'll remain detached though I am not
Though I'm not calm or collected at all.
I will see him tomorrow
And she will not be there in person
And I will not yearn or reach for either
If only because I love them.
I honestly don't know what I'm doing with myself
I don't truly believe that they could help.
They make up the entirety of the other's world
There's no room, no space, for this bitter girl.
