Am I to be touched but never caressed?
Am I to be kept close but never let in?
Am I to be a burden to all and solution to none?
Am I doomed? Cursed?
An empty wound?
I hold this pain in my hands
When I try to release, it burrows deeper
I fear my future
I fear the loss I will face
Inevitably, my love will be lost within the muck
I just wish to rest my head
Nestled between the wings of my nonexistent mother
I crave a past that has never graced me
Am I to be lost to time?
Am I to be found alone?
Am I to remain terrified of life itself?
Am I?
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 10:22 PM UTC
Am I to be touched but never caressed?
Am I to be kept close but never let in?
Am I to be a burden to all and solution to none?
Am I doomed? Cursed?
An empty wound?
I hold this pain in my hands
When I try to release, it burrows deeper
I fear my future
I fear the loss I will face
Inevitably, my love will be lost within the muck
I just wish to rest my head
Nestled between the wings of my nonexistent mother
I crave a past that has never graced me
Am I to be lost to time?
Am I to be found alone?
Am I to remain terrified of life itself?
Am I?
I am so lost and scared. I am trying to hold onto the hope that I will find a way out of this hole. It is getting so dark down here :(