By just looking at me,
you'd never be able to tell,
That I hate myself so much ,
I eat till I don't feel well.
I lie to myself everyday,
The cravings always at bay...
Maybe today I'll be strong?
No, once again I'm wrong.
I feel so truly ashamed,
Who else can be blamed?
No one but stupid little me!
For hoping I could ever be free.
Food gives me comfort.
Food will always be there.
And if I never find love,
why should I even care?
I think of nothing else,
But the next meal to come...
I have never been special.
Am I special to anyone?