I sit here looking at the clock
reading every minute
the count down has begun
Only a few more days
a few more days
before I step out of my comfort zone
into a place where I do not belong
I try to think of ways to stay here,
to stay where I feel safe
I try to convince myself that it will be okay
That little voice in the back of my mind laughs
it tells me it will not be okay
my mind debates as i try to trick myself into believing
all I want to do is believe
Believe that everything will be okay