i’m trying hard
to keep it together
desperation is my middle name
restless nights
and hopeless days
i can’t do enough
can’t be enough
to keep up this juggling act
everything is falling apart so spectacularly
a fire of blues and reds and purples
one that only i can see
so i play a little game with myself
_let’s see how well i can pretend everything is okay_
i’ve gotten good at it recently
as my plans for my future start to crumble in my palms
i can still feign interest over a friend’s passing fling
i’ve even been able to pretend
my self esteem is going up
accepting compliments
even convincing myself i’m not a failure
_it’s laughable, really_
a piece of **** like me,
who can’t even keep
her life from falling apart,
finally loving herself?
_not gonna happen_
so i laugh
and sit
and watch
as _everything falls apart_
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 12:15 AM UTC
i’m trying hard
to keep it together
desperation is my middle name
restless nights
and hopeless days
i can’t do enough
can’t be enough
to keep up this juggling act
everything is falling apart so spectacularly
a fire of blues and reds and purples
one that only i can see
so i play a little game with myself
_let’s see how well i can pretend everything is okay_
i’ve gotten good at it recently
as my plans for my future start to crumble in my palms
i can still feign interest over a friend’s passing fling
i’ve even been able to pretend
my self esteem is going up
accepting compliments
even convincing myself i’m not a failure
_it’s laughable, really_
a piece of **** like me,
who can’t even keep
her life from falling apart,
finally loving herself?
_not gonna happen_
so i laugh
and sit
and watch
as _everything falls apart_
Wowee everything has not been good recently, and someone has made it worse, but I cant let it show bc I’m basically the therapist of the group
I’m supposed to be the emotionally stable one, the one you can always ask for advice or help in school work and I don’t know how long I can keep up this facade of being okay
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