i wish you could give me a hug again
i wish i could mess up my brother’s hair
and try to pet all our dogs at once
i’m not at home here
this was supposed to be a
dream come true
a new family, a new life
traveling and living
_but it’s not_
after hearing the things
the woman who took me in said
i want to go back home
i want to be happy
_this four year long dream
has been crushed_
May 21, 2019
May 21, 2019 at 9:30 AM UTC
i’m trying
to wrap my head
around what happened
i’ve never been dropped so
fast after being told
_”i love you”_
how much
was a lie you told?
how much was just so
you could wrap your hands
around my fragile heart?
i don’t think i’ll
ever know
i want
to scream
rage and make
you understand the
_pain_
you
spun tales
about a future
you never truly wanted
i was just
an __option__
an __outcome__
someone to
__maybe__ choose
to love
and it hurts.
a lot.
my heart was an open house
you let yourself in
and _tore the
place to
__shreds___
_i don’t know
if you’ll ever understand
what your decisions
have done
to me_
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
_somedays i think
if i looked inside your heart
he would be there
instead of me_
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 10:01 AM UTC