you focus on the pills,
I try to stop the fading,
I've been fading,
and the thing that breaks my heart the most,
is You love me with your demons,
and I take it in,
I take you in.
every time.
and there's bruises on my arm love,
from another fight once one,
just to be lost again.
And you, you find lovers in smoke covered rooms,
and the demons run rampant,
and you leave me,
worrying at home,
all alone,
ever alone.
You say,"you do not own me, you cannot control me"
and you carry you modge podge jaded notions of romance,
around like it's a suitcase, to wear and tear,
but you light my fire from the outside in,
proving your the one to make me feel,
you smile like the crooked monster you've become,
now your smiles don't even meet my eyes,
and "baby baby baby..."
you promise me rainbows and picket fences after every time.
its the line, I've bought it,
and for every step you take a yard,
there are scars to prove it,
I have scars to prove it.
And there are days i wear them like stitches,
they hold the broken pieces
of this broken heart,
still there are other days where the light of a new days dawning,
and I can pass the etch a sketch on my skin
as creative badges,
ugly to be sure,
reluctant trails to nowhere safe,
and lines to color in.
BUT I refuse to be your prisoner, so please sir, watch me leave.