I told myself we wouldn't
change
afterwards.
After the break.
After it ended.
After the relationship.
You probably told yourself the same thing.
Feeding yourself the mantra of
"We'll be friends now.
Eventually, it'll go back to how it was.
We'll be back to normal."
Well, did it?
I thought so.
I don't know how you think.
I don't know your mindset.
I don't know your values.
What I do know
is that you missed how we
used to talk.
The way you said it two nights ago on the phone.
"We don't talk like we used to anymore."
Me, being too caught in the moment, asked
"Why?"
You answered
"It was nice."
You could've said something.
Made the effort to go back to how we used to.
Maybe even ask me if we could
go back to "normal".
Why didn't you bother?
You can't expect me to
initiate
everything, you know?
If you thought it was so "nice"
you could've put effort into it.
I knew you were dumb,
but I didn't think you were stupid.
But if you really missed it
if you thought it was so "nice"
if you missed how refreshing it was to
hear us talk
like how we used to
Call me.
Text me.
Talk to me.
Whatever it is
I'm right here.
There's no need to hesitate.
You know I'll answer when I can.
You know I'll talk to you about anything.
You know I'll answer your questions.
I'll be right here.
We can talk like friends.
We can laugh like friends.
We can rant like friends.
We can cry like friends.
I'm just a couple texts away.
I'm just a call away.
I'm just a talk away.
I'm right here.