he wanted her
by @butterfliesonmytongue
I saw in my mind, a mirror,
Saw everything I wasn’t
Within her.
I know you touch her lightly,
Kiss her softly, you must muse
Over how easy it is
To wrap your mind around her existence
Oh, how it broke me
To see you with
A perfect version
Of someone I could never be
With her hair brushed behind her ear,
A simple smile on her face, you used to love it
How my locks would intertwine with our lips
When you kissed me, how you couldn’t ever figure me out,
How my smile disguised multitudes
I was too much for you.
Too much baggage
She is light, she is not a puzzle,
She rises before meridian
Synched with the rise of the sun
I was the moon,
Shadowed, waxing, waning
Never staying still.
And it sucks to say I understand,
If it were me, I would choose the one
Who was easiest to love the one
Without butterflies encircling her head
Instead of me, you wanted her,
And I will spend my life
Just trying to be okay with that.