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P Chartier Jan 2013

Your words are
pins; slowly puncturing my growing,
open heart.

Your smile
is a mask, hiding the forked instrument that sounds like
breaking glass.

Your blood was
the wine that I couldn't help but drink every night slowly growing
dependent.

Your thoughts were
carbon monoxide to my mind, which forced me to
sleep away...

P Chartier Jan 2013

My Insanity

Spinning visions blur
As I dance with the flowers
That infect my mind

P Chartier Jan 2013

Crescent Mouth

I invited you over for tea
and when I saw that face, that beard
I noticed how you forgot something at home this morning...
when I made you coffee, and sent you off to work.

Maybe you brought it with you when we kissed goodbye
but twelve hours later, it disappeared.
I know the girls at work didn't ****** it up
and keep it for themselves, although they would have loved to if they could.
I try to tell myself that it didn't fall away once the door closed, and I got my day started.

I think to myself "Maybe I can put it back on you, and make it appear"
but everything I say or do has no lasting affect.
I catch glimpses of it from my peripheral, blurred vision.
And then, in the darkness of night,
it is _ _ _ _.
(gone)

P Chartier Jan 2013

Trampled Love

When we first met, you were
The warm sunlight on my face
The salt water in my hair
The colors of paint on my canvas
and the loving words I began to say to myself and others

You made me a lion
Never timid or ashamed.
I was growing like a tree
With cherry blossoms
and all the people starred with such awe
and knew that it was your power that kept me alive.

Until one day you grew
A serpent tongue that spoke monstrous words.
I became a nuisance with my love
And when I leaped you pulled me back to a step.
I became trapped in your eyes and tortured with your mind.
You threw a million shards of glass at my heart
and expected me to stand up tall.

One day I spoke the forbidden words of "Au Revoir"
and met a real lion who was ready to throw me on her back
and take me to the amazon or anywhere I pleased.
She fed me words of support and knew that
I was exotic in these native lands.

But you trampled your way back into my heart seven days later
and now I think to myself,
"If I have such grace, poise and love.
How can I allow someone to trample
all over me, and turn me into a
disarray of chaos."

P Chartier Dec 2012

Last Words

The world has unbelievable beauty
and you would paint the colors viewed through my cornea
and you controlled my iris and allowed me to view life in beauty.
These visions can never be taken away.

I wish I didn't feel trapped in a box as a child
fearful of becoming locked inside with dark demons haunting me
but I realized those demons were not you, but only eating you alive.
I believe this gave us peace, and only now I realize
how you deserved a second chance.

Ring ring ring, pick up
you called when I needed you, and I was still a stranger
you dedicated your time to me, and took risks
and for that I thank you, and I hope you knew
I cared too...

Your kind soul will never be forgotten
my family weeps for your entrance into the next life.
flashbacks come to me, and memories are never replaced
there was still so much more to learn from you,
but that has been left for the rest of the world to share with me.

These four inspirations have touched me differently
and left me in a matter of three hundred and sixty days
This year has been perplexing, and im unsure if I can feel again
but now I can see what is held at the upmost value in my heat
Remembrance, Time, Family, and Love.

Four people have left me this year. My ex-girlfriend (one of my best friends) Ava, My father, My friend Sam, and my Aunt Jojo. This is for you all.

P Chartier Dec 2012

Submersion

You held my hand tight,
and I held on to your heart,
drowning in the sea.

P Chartier Dec 2012

Silence

You said the last word.
I am done responding back.
That is all for now.