i didn't think i would
but i did
i am

i am falling for you
and i can't stop now
so i can do is hope
hope that you are falling for me too

i'm trying so hard to write
but it's hard to have your feelings right at the surface
floating like a decaying fish in a lake
an eyesore
something you can't  stay away from
a leach  
******* your energy and happiness away

its hard when you realize that the love you felt wasn't love at all
and no matter how hard you try, it never will be

my feet hurt
my shoes are worn from the places i've been
i don't want to go anywhere else
i want to feel
i want to feel love again
i want to feel you in my arms
i want to hear you say those two words that i desperately need to hear
"i'm sorry"
but i know you'd be lying
and yet, my ears ring
and hope for those words to leave your lips

i'm trying so hard
but you're not trying at all
it's hard to talk when no one is listening

please don't make me hate loving you
don't make me hate the ache i get in my chest
please don't make me hate myself for being so stupid

please

they tell you they will be there for you
like your shadow that kisses the pavement
but the sun sets and the shadow leaves
like everyone seems to be doing these days
and i need someone when the night is black and my eyes can't stay closed

i need you