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ooznozz Sep 2017
The rawness, the element of risk at the entrance to my anger… malleable as soft clay... Black curtains... never ending; mental state fractures and the pièce de résistance: unable to find a sense of comfort through the stillness - Step over its threshold, into my space where i have frayed angel hair (a tangled mess) from rebellious fingers of tumultuous running through it

Yes, i get into the same bed each night trying to go to sleep, engaging in a thorough, exhaustive rethinking night after night.
Thinking that if i look away, it might be gone by the time i look back

Ambling onto this stage of even bigger drama,
My soul is a battleground,
DARKNESS, the chosen color of my odyssey...
AND dialed up t’fail

There’s a nagging sense that actions have no consequences and rules are being made up; a slumping trail mixes among unsettled footing on a ledge of well-stocked missed directions –
There’s a flickering neon sign with its defective tubes, smelling funny and humming noise…

Reminding me of the fact that there is no stirring narrative word – FUMFUH’d again / pulling the rug from under my feet, a flapping numb – brain think, as it is with most who write and then fall off the page


by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Yellow streak right up the spine
I am reviled by your architecture of aggression
I can't laugh,
can't turn 'round, and run from it, man

Goddamit, something must've gone wrong
How these          
whirlwinds of pressure
whip and blister
They are oh so terribly
cruel.

Yes; you blacken!
                                                        ­                                     And bully!
                                                          ­                 Why bellow?
                                                         ­                 I'm yellow
                                         This build up
                                                              ­                                           Is making me
                                                              ­                         Blue...
And I don't know whether or not
I can weather or knot this storm anymore
                                                         ­       'cause
                                                   ­      The forecast says,                                                            ­                                                  I'M BLOWIN'
                                                         ­                     MY COOL!
Where's the helping hand?
Roaring through my head, “Survival such a silly whim…”
Forgotten things remembered, these cobwebs make me squint  
Black curtains... never ending
"looking down the cross", my skull beneath the skin
rub it, now offer your death kiss to me
Like a genie in a bottle make a wish - May the past "rest in peace"…

Next thing you know, you'll take my thoughts away
Unable to beg salvation from the empty skies…
and what sanity is left has become my hideout
Forgotten things remembered
I go up into my hideout
One last look at visions in my brain as I tiptoe through its darkness

I've burned from a mental overload
Live and die within my heart is always the quickest way out

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
In that moment, easily manipulated; yanked
I am spinning
It doesn't matter
As I wedge myself between barely visible and “God, I’m cursed!”
No restoration... when forces tear loose from their axis

And then I was reminded, "But did they inject and inspect every single part of you?"

Whirling up and swirling blackness
Stepping over a threshold
Tumbling me over
My heart maneuvers through a block of ice,
Some kind of arctic daydream

Strangling, a wearied me
Choking whatever warmth I had left within
awakening the nightmare
And far into my space I go
My flickering space
Jostled by pulsing fingers of tumultuous

And then I was reminded, "But did they inject and inspect every single part of you?"

Thus I am dark
The end note
Now
Pouring out all things without destination
And I barely stir… Then
Snap, crackle n pop

Out at its end
Where there is nothing else
I was nuthin’ more
The coup de grâce

A slave of this -

S
      
       W

    I            
        
          R
                 L
        I  

N
          
    G
Lunacy –
A prisoner of this cartoon that’s me, Shackled too... To dark cloud Demons - No doubt!

And then I remembered that they injected and inspected every single part of me...
ooznozz Aug 2017
Newspapers cloak only to wrap Th' Truth
Propaganda-acid is droppin’ our youth
It’s easy to see; like pullin’ a tooth
No one's in line at the ballot booth
Give ill wind time to blow, the rooster to crow
There’s a numbing down with the control on slow
Plug my ears jus’ don’t say it isn’t so

America’s asleep… and America’s snoring

If I was Th' Lone Ranger hidin' behind a mask
There wouldn't be any danger to the questions I ask
Howza ‘bout genocide, dispossession and warfare… a hearty Godspeed?
Whatcha say Pocahontas; trade in your feathers n beads,
All for an electric blanket and a packet of reservation misdeeds
“You bet”, that's what she said while she-smoke-um-peace-pipe
O paraquat laced stems n seeds

And her chronic cough resembles America snoring

If I were a world leader, I would not mislead Th' World
I would not miss anything. Miss Amerika knows
that it's only a pageant, and that it's only a show
isn’t any film in the camera - Then why are we posing this **’?
No, no, no, Miss Amerika knows…
She’s a man infests destiny *** slave with competition ribbons & bows
Physical restraint, our lady Liberty reaps all that she sows

And her breathy voice resembles America snoring

You remember Houdini, not a shackle could hold
Cut a trapdoor into heaven t’escape growin' old
Guess he just couldn't hack it, bundled up fo' the cold
Double-breasted straight-jacket, French handcuffs of gold
Freedoms breath got magically cup’d with an airtight stranglehold
With much sleight o hand plus reckless feats o daring

He conjured up Camelot snoring like Merlin did, before disappearing

If I had me a needle for every bubble I popped
Bind 'em all like one; you would hear those pins drop…
Like a gunshot, like a shot – An explosion of societal erosion
Freedoms and privileges dissolve in the roaring circuitry that flows
Far within the bald eagle’s skull there’s a thing of Grand Guignol excess,
‘round n ‘round it goes
Hey pilgrim, what ‘bout that promise of angel wings & a new shiny halo?

It sounds an awful like America blew it ‘cause of the snoring

Gol ****, and with a revisionist history twist
It all (AMERICA th' beooteeffool) can be told (over n over)
Until we’re unwittingly sold,
And certainly nobody will be particularly ******
A fire side chat ‘bout our lunacy embraces the mantra “Oh, say, can you see…”
While I pledge allegiance to everything but thee
Gotta lay in the bed made for the brave and the so-called free
America is (fill in your favorite expletive) snoring
I hear, yes I hear America snoring, snoring - America’s asleep…

by "ooznozz"
Aug 2017 · 272
JEEBUS H. XRISTAN, OHGAWD!
ooznozz Aug 2017
Overall verbal smack down view of the philosophy -

Do not refer to the shade of a person to describe someone. That’s just plain mean. No, no, no… You identify a person by the color of their core which should not be a patina; a surface sheen. It’s a beautiful glistening of all the prism colors within “the light” at ones core that rules – if you don’t project this amazing color wheel aura then the bleak and dark center reveals you to be the fool.

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Is being alone antisocial?

When I start to feel uncomfortable,
I take a deep breath and I try to take the pressure off myself,
and let my heart and thoughts
control these difficult moments.

I’ve learned more about myself than I ever did
when surrounded by others - Insincere smiles and its relationship to the world around it creates erosion of civil life and private dignity...

No one plans to be alone. I certainly didn’t.
There are some days when I’m lonely and I cry,
but with each day that passes, I’m learning I can do things by myself. But when I do venture outside to see the world, I know that I can do it on my own and NOT worry ‘bout anyone sharking into my waters.

by "ooznozz"
Aug 2017 · 200
poem: Meth’d up Confusion
ooznozz Aug 2017
Snow on the mountain top nose no course of action
An inhale with nuance assures such satisfaction
While blowback will cancel one an’ alls reaction

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Ghostly scars searching; murky and lively waters provide a forceful and ill advised navigable pull of a wave. The seas play tug-of-war with me and this rueful rolling mix of waves, as ill-tempered breezes under a sailor’s dead moon illuminates in silence the cold ships that are still afloat on bludgeoning white caps of yesteryear.

This old pirate moon hangs freely while singing ‘bout our lord, and death –shapeless now and not conforming, it sails in the black beauty of space-time reaching out with its waspishly fingers attempting to eat a foray of phantom ships in the blackish night.

Churning old waves, it stirs the gulls in flight, which are quietly viewed from the mast of those ghost ships that once plied the seas, searching still, and seeking those turbulent clouds that resemble an old sailor in the dizzying stillness among liquid moonbeams and their razor-like glow;

“Oh, the shark,
Babe, she has such teeth, dear / and it shows
                             Those pearly whites”…

Your whispered messages are a potent voice.
And every splash sounds like applause among the jagged rocks along my imagination’s coastline...
How deathly afraid was i now of your hurtful waves?
Flowing outward with an undulating motion, a forceful agitation-
Revealing my reflection, now anchored to this mournful nightlight,
                  
                  Illuminating the "uh-oh's" swimming across
my cold sailor’s
trembling mouth-


by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
When reading Wm. Burroughs i fall virtually invisible while moonbeams and razor blades take a fresh scalp, mine. Tearing loose from his torn pages and the cracked book spine of this person, i still hear words echoing, "Ahh, the dice cannot read their own spots"
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“Erosion”, forget-me-not…“Erosion”,

When i **** UP,

It’s a true 10 on a 10 scale.
Maybe even a…Last gasp?!?

My inner voice spoke softly ‘bout loud issues
"Stay an inch or two outta kicking distance”…
And “take note of the sanity lost.”                                                          

Gah, yes, i know. It’s time to go down in the basement of my mind. It is damp and musty, poorly lit, a very low ceiling and in places very dark. It is an underground space and what you see is very much like what you’d see when a large rock is lifted up off a damp floor – ugly basement-like Things that are scurrying ‘bout. Hey jus’ maybe this is my Naked Luncheonette imagination working overtime and thinking, “Hmm, whatever” – Bottom-line; this is the place i wanna be at...

Said the ugly basement-like Thing…
”THE CRAP YOU ARE ABOUT TO STEP INTO AT THE NAKED LUNCHEONETTE IS DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE POETS WHO…UNDERSTAND ME AND MISUNDERSTAND ME AS WELL AS, TO ALL THE ‘HEELS’, WHO WOULD JUST LOVE TO STAND ON ME”

STEP HERE ——> AND THEN THERE..

With skin in the game @ THE NAKED LUNCHEONETTE
i’m poking ‘round in the archaeological digs
of a used and improbably mind.

Reaching out, grabbing small handfuls of "what was once"...

Fumbling among the skipped parts
& then finding that my tongue
is the enemy, of my well executed smarts…?
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i throw the dice, built from the bones (i cling onto ‘em like a life raft) of my once-upon-a-time friends.

All are gone, all but one.

The one on each die that tumbles away from me

i keep on lookin' away when i stare down at ‘em… screaming SNAKE EYES in frustration
i know not to mess with the snake eyes when flesh circulates as payment.
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“Echo, tears, embodiment” says the angel as i fall upon my knees



by 'ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Th’ blackassboo smile comes easily off this way-out hardened jazznik, and with it a color palette collage of a cool cat stretching out when percolating his musician’s lips.

There’s nimbleness with a dash of a braggarts swagger…
Something that artists of the beat generation popularized.
Craving for some wall breaking, door busting,
And genre shaping daddy-o jazz poems of jocularity,
Titillation with wistful windblown musical notes for an ear massage.

Sounds come in colors between the chants of encore in the flickering space between these fantastical moments with me, Exhilaration urges adventure from the magic that follows.

Bop-soul imagery and a romantic assemblage of what is hip...
An impassioned audacity distinguishes itself in the rousing unapologetic antiestablishment zeal of me; reciting off -
Some cool verse.

Finger snapping with both crackle n pop madness for the new hot. (I need to) go, Go, GO, and explore this incarnation and birth of boplcity -The jazz man's skills aren’t influenced by vagaries of faith…

Dear JAZZ ANGELS on uploaded clouds of notes floating and changing shape. PERFECT. Unbelievable

Resonate the heavily infused bop MUSIC n POETRY molecule with a Lend Me Your Ear skin in the game, Arise relaxed tempos and lighter tones, a total higher consciousness where countless hours of the best jazz music 'round derives a perceived feeling from this **** mindfuck content. A blessing fer sure.

I’m not religious but this is god speaking through music.
There’s a thumbs up, with multiple stars flying out the tips.
Smiling, playing, simply slammin'
an intensity of full attention…

And with it comes a common pulse with a common purpose
what we have is a peeling off of flawlessness, carefree yet with a deep reverence for the musicality’s soul.

I communicate with the laid-back higher forces in this universe; I like the snap on it.

Dazzling intelligence and a force that transcends –
To deliver such a great sound full of love, emotion, and beyond.
Sounds crest into jammin’ hard driving improv,
which shapes th’ musical poetic on intertwined waves of the highest fidelity...

O bloated jazz blues and decibels dance t'ballyhoo'd be-bop flung,
While lighting up a music note, on th’ purest candle, & 'morrow's serendipity will help us see that heavenly ladders rung.

This quenches the thirsty, cleaning my atmosphere;
(A) Beautiful losers timelessness, coupled with an “I hear ya” manifesto sound trip o' crazy kewl elegance!

Music is the best!


by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Wormy gorgon of the fugly garbage gorgon's has a very sad an' lowly life indeed. She curses an' antagonizes a cancer fighter instead of sending her sincere good wishes an' a heartfelt expressed Godspeed.

On her best day, she exemplifies all the characteristics of a mean spirited, moronic jag off misanthrope whose only desire is to plant a very bad weedy seed. Her angry tongue splinters an' then bullies.
My wish is t’have fingers of tumultuous jostle you – attempting to throw you hard toward kingdom-come…

Human suffering,
“Can this drama, the supreme embodiment of the human condition, possibly be okay?”
My stomach knots.
---------------------------
Often not much has changed in our actual life –
Yes, I get into the same bed each night trying to go to sleep,
Thinking that if I look away,
You might be gone by the time I look back.

(This has been) a Creeping ode to the aftereffects of a small minded twerp…

by "ooznozz"
Aug 2017 · 298
Poem: A BEST SELLER
ooznozz Aug 2017
Uh oh,
That smile curls up like page corners; it masquerades
As great power with great social rewards
Profound body language…?
Jus' a few words are spelled out with expression ‘round those lips
And then reads as such - “please, **** me”
I must remember and promise myself to practice
... Safe text!


by "ooznozz"
Aug 2017 · 204
Poem: Tits Like The Sun…
ooznozz Aug 2017
Jus’ remember princess and I say that fondly, that “looking at cleavage is like looking at the sun. You don’t stare at it ‘cause it is all too risky. You get a sense of it and then you look away!”

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
i used to control and command - now, one day i started telling everyone that god ******, something must’ve gone wrong. My brain had been dissolved in the roaring circuitry that flows far within this skull beneath the skin…

i’m playing tug-of-war with this rueful rolling mix of fading memories, truth blackens all vision while remorse burns introspection until blurred.

i am helplessly helpless, no restoration. It’s uncensored, uncontained, and thoroughly problematic as whirlwinds of self-analysis trigger a flapping numb. It isn't a question of if, but “when will” the shadows be caught in the act…
i’ve been marked it’s finished, done -
And as result, i have No voice (it’s been turned off), there’s no strength of decency …And certainly no laughter.

i bemoan, “There’s so much bitterness and bad memories consigned”…My ghostly scars are a potent drug, and i’m knocked to my knees. Yes, the ticking clock comes singing / all angry and accusatory.

i bemoan, “That which is pushed eventually must fall over”
And freedoms breath is cupped with this action, a suffocating squeeze,
And maybe even… It’s all scary especially when i hear the question echo from your lips -

What hurts?


By “ooznozz”
ooznozz Aug 2017
An empty drinking glass is pressed against a wall; amplifying the voices on the other side. My ear is pressed to the words, ”outside is a secret key” - I can honestly say, “I hear…" Your words, idealizations, sentiments, selected scrawls of graffiti-type promise and viewpoints echo through the wall. Over and over. Championing outsiders…

Are there WALLS WITHIN WALLS? Can we walk through them? ARE THE WALLS ERASABLE? Will the walls tumble down? Will the walls polarize? WHAT ABOUT CRACKS IN THE WALLS? Can they hear? Can we leap over them?

DO WE build them where everything and anything follows and flows?
DO WE build them where something's nothingness tethers vapors with souls?
DO WE build them so molecular melodies of light and dark can collide unopposed?

Are these word walls of dust?  Can we move them? Can you angle between these walls? Will the walls speak a wealth of quiet surprises, poems, and meditations? Do walls give birth to improvisation?

Now some of these walls, in their moment are with no rules, self-constructed, circling dramatically, and might prove more resistant to erosion.  These are often troubling walls, no voice, no strength of decency, no laughter, which place freedom at stake. That and survival. One can be easily manipulated or yanked by an image of the truth swirling in the brick blackness of the wall. Discomforts relish now. Walls such as these are very deep-rooted and passed on for generations. Yet even those barriers eventually give way once we read the super fine print etched into the wall - a word salad of B.S., idiocy and hypocrisy.

Reach for spray-paint and enlarge your wall… maybe it enhances your world now with colored aerosols of wall portraiture's that capture rebellion and mirth. So many Walls, AND SO MANY QUERIES…

I heard a poem say, “Step out from behind one (wall) and FIND YOUR REAL SELF” – or maybe it whispered “jus walk through that door in the wall.”
Your tightly strung trampoline of words has provided a springboard for me to bounce freely over the many walls we build around ourselves.


by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Meticulous ******* punching everything together; perfect!

By "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
(Under the beautiful star the right path will be illuminated)

Translucently straightforward, it’s all beyond explanation,
Always golden… nourishing on the deliciousness of “now.”

! stir under a blanket o’ morn
while the unraveling of a dream
signals my arms t’pull back
the rumpled fabric of sleep that covers me.
! conspire for so much more…

... An image of the truth whispers

Lopsided grace,
and jus’ trying t’stay human
makes my frayed angel hair
a tangled mess

By "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
I SAW THE BEST MINDS OF MY GENERALIZATION
wearing halos of fog,
opening their eyes with a burst of surreal an' shattering
the beacon of light
with a splatter of the gray matter... afterwards it all became
so fug'n trite.

I'm phrasing perfect with a hint of propulsive barb'd barkin'
—Man, I am aching to blather,
**** man, it's more than ****-cheek chatter—
it BBBBBBBBBButt bubbles with a puhcussive tootin';
a howl absurd!

I raise a cup & say cheers t' Allen Ginsberg

"O BLOATED BLUES an' DECIBELS DANCE
t'BALLYHOO'd BE-BOP FLUNG
An' BOMBS BUSTIN OPEN with Gear's CLAWING
t'BE AIRBORNE",
Yes, he SITs IN a SPACE SHARE'd with us;
finger snappin' & poetry clappin' from
a heavenly ladder's rung...

A MAD HATTER's CHINA TEACUP is filled
with continuous soft crackling liveliness of effervescence...
and buoyed by the holy soul jelly roll that moves
through here now.
So let us praise and bestow upon him,
a heartfelt bow before we etch on the walls
of my primitive pome cave
our beatnik chorale reverberation of "AND HOW!"

By "ooznozz"
Aug 2017 · 281
Poem: Inking Invisibility
ooznozz Aug 2017
a tilt of the face communiqué / 's cool, and bad at the same time / it becomes your advantage / a suggestion takes flight / there's a straightforward coyness / so i twitch, writhe, and laugh internal / a scared lamenting chortle / a painful squirm / i'm unable to line up the edges of this mysteriousness / you fade in, and then out / i suffer acutely / i'm at a dead end / in the silence of your smile / moonbeams are razor sharp / showing deep cuts / while wordless nanoseconds morph into uh oh's / yes, you sharked into my waters / there's an uncertainty of trust / gnashing 'n gnawing / as real life goes, some things never change / as tears reverse my invisibility

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