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ooznozz Sep 2017
The rawness, the element of risk at the entrance to my anger… malleable as soft clay... Black curtains... never ending; mental state fractures and the pièce de résistance: unable to find a sense of comfort through the stillness - Step over its threshold, into my space where i have frayed angel hair (a tangled mess) from rebellious fingers of tumultuous running through it

Yes, i get into the same bed each night trying to go to sleep, engaging in a thorough, exhaustive rethinking night after night.
Thinking that if i look away, it might be gone by the time i look back

Ambling onto this stage of even bigger drama,
My soul is a battleground,
DARKNESS, the chosen color of my odyssey...
AND dialed up t’fail

There’s a nagging sense that actions have no consequences and rules are being made up; a slumping trail mixes among unsettled footing on a ledge of well-stocked missed directions –
There’s a flickering neon sign with its defective tubes, smelling funny and humming noise…

Reminding me of the fact that there is no stirring narrative word – FUMFUH’d again / pulling the rug from under my feet, a flapping numb – brain think, as it is with most who write and then fall off the page


by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Yellow streak right up the spine
I am reviled by your architecture of aggression
I can't laugh,
can't turn 'round, and run from it, man

Goddamit, something must've gone wrong
How these          
whirlwinds of pressure
whip and blister
They are oh so terribly
cruel.

Yes; you blacken!
                                                        ­                                     And bully!
                                                          ­                 Why bellow?
                                                         ­                 I'm yellow
                                         This build up
                                                              ­                                           Is making me
                                                              ­                         Blue...
And I don't know whether or not
I can weather or knot this storm anymore
                                                         ­       'cause
                                                   ­      The forecast says,                                                            ­                                                  I'M BLOWIN'
                                                         ­                     MY COOL!
Where's the helping hand?
Roaring through my head, “Survival such a silly whim…”
Forgotten things remembered, these cobwebs make me squint  
Black curtains... never ending
"looking down the cross", my skull beneath the skin
rub it, now offer your death kiss to me
Like a genie in a bottle make a wish - May the past "rest in peace"…

Next thing you know, you'll take my thoughts away
Unable to beg salvation from the empty skies…
and what sanity is left has become my hideout
Forgotten things remembered
I go up into my hideout
One last look at visions in my brain as I tiptoe through its darkness

I've burned from a mental overload
Live and die within my heart is always the quickest way out

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
In that moment, easily manipulated; yanked
I am spinning
It doesn't matter
As I wedge myself between barely visible and “God, I’m cursed!”
No restoration... when forces tear loose from their axis

And then I was reminded, "But did they inject and inspect every single part of you?"

Whirling up and swirling blackness
Stepping over a threshold
Tumbling me over
My heart maneuvers through a block of ice,
Some kind of arctic daydream

Strangling, a wearied me
Choking whatever warmth I had left within
awakening the nightmare
And far into my space I go
My flickering space
Jostled by pulsing fingers of tumultuous

And then I was reminded, "But did they inject and inspect every single part of you?"

Thus I am dark
The end note
Now
Pouring out all things without destination
And I barely stir… Then
Snap, crackle n pop

Out at its end
Where there is nothing else
I was nuthin’ more
The coup de grâce

A slave of this -

S
      
       W

    I            
        
          R
                 L
        I  

N
          
    G
Lunacy –
A prisoner of this cartoon that’s me, Shackled too... To dark cloud Demons - No doubt!

And then I remembered that they injected and inspected every single part of me...
ooznozz Aug 2017
Newspapers cloak only to wrap Th' Truth
Propaganda-acid is droppin’ our youth
It’s easy to see; like pullin’ a tooth
No one's in line at the ballot booth
Give ill wind time to blow, the rooster to crow
There’s a numbing down with the control on slow
Plug my ears jus’ don’t say it isn’t so

America’s asleep… and America’s snoring

If I was Th' Lone Ranger hidin' behind a mask
There wouldn't be any danger to the questions I ask
Howza ‘bout genocide, dispossession and warfare… a hearty Godspeed?
Whatcha say Pocahontas; trade in your feathers n beads,
All for an electric blanket and a packet of reservation misdeeds
“You bet”, that's what she said while she-smoke-um-peace-pipe
O paraquat laced stems n seeds

And her chronic cough resembles America snoring

If I were a world leader, I would not mislead Th' World
I would not miss anything. Miss Amerika knows
that it's only a pageant, and that it's only a show
isn’t any film in the camera - Then why are we posing this **’?
No, no, no, Miss Amerika knows…
She’s a man infests destiny *** slave with competition ribbons & bows
Physical restraint, our lady Liberty reaps all that she sows

And her breathy voice resembles America snoring

You remember Houdini, not a shackle could hold
Cut a trapdoor into heaven t’escape growin' old
Guess he just couldn't hack it, bundled up fo' the cold
Double-breasted straight-jacket, French handcuffs of gold
Freedoms breath got magically cup’d with an airtight stranglehold
With much sleight o hand plus reckless feats o daring

He conjured up Camelot snoring like Merlin did, before disappearing

If I had me a needle for every bubble I popped
Bind 'em all like one; you would hear those pins drop…
Like a gunshot, like a shot – An explosion of societal erosion
Freedoms and privileges dissolve in the roaring circuitry that flows
Far within the bald eagle’s skull there’s a thing of Grand Guignol excess,
‘round n ‘round it goes
Hey pilgrim, what ‘bout that promise of angel wings & a new shiny halo?

It sounds an awful like America blew it ‘cause of the snoring

Gol ****, and with a revisionist history twist
It all (AMERICA th' beooteeffool) can be told (over n over)
Until we’re unwittingly sold,
And certainly nobody will be particularly ******
A fire side chat ‘bout our lunacy embraces the mantra “Oh, say, can you see…”
While I pledge allegiance to everything but thee
Gotta lay in the bed made for the brave and the so-called free
America is (fill in your favorite expletive) snoring
I hear, yes I hear America snoring, snoring - America’s asleep…

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Overall verbal smack down view of the philosophy -

Do not refer to the shade of a person to describe someone. That’s just plain mean. No, no, no… You identify a person by the color of their core which should not be a patina; a surface sheen. It’s a beautiful glistening of all the prism colors within “the light” at ones core that rules – if you don’t project this amazing color wheel aura then the bleak and dark center reveals you to be the fool.

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Is being alone antisocial?

When I start to feel uncomfortable,
I take a deep breath and I try to take the pressure off myself,
and let my heart and thoughts
control these difficult moments.

I’ve learned more about myself than I ever did
when surrounded by others - Insincere smiles and its relationship to the world around it creates erosion of civil life and private dignity...

No one plans to be alone. I certainly didn’t.
There are some days when I’m lonely and I cry,
but with each day that passes, I’m learning I can do things by myself. But when I do venture outside to see the world, I know that I can do it on my own and NOT worry ‘bout anyone sharking into my waters.

by "ooznozz"
ooznozz Aug 2017
Snow on the mountain top nose no course of action
An inhale with nuance assures such satisfaction
While blowback will cancel one an’ alls reaction

by "ooznozz"
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