it's as if

we have known each other forever.
but i'm really glad we met last week.


because i know that

if you had known me when i was
suicidal
drugged up
glazed over ritalin eyes
sappy dramatic
lonely
teenage hormones
with an extra kick



in the chest



you would have ran in the other direction.

The dark parts of my mind
Are fairly bright
Still, bring a light

air has never smelled this way
today it feels like i can breathe
tiptoeing on hot tarmac
i am nothing
but my sunburnt skin and bones
but take me.

Militant, cursing, ruling, ordering
telling me what to do
how to do
when and where to do
I do
What I want
You tell me what to want
but, I do what I want
and will
not
listen
to
you