deprived of sleep
my thoughts they creep
to lands of far away
my eyelids slip
I lose my grip
and fall back in to dreaming
and in my sleep I am awake
a little noise this world will break
and everything is as it should be
the ones I love are near
and I can banish all my fear
in slumbering I am most serene
and so I slip back to my dream

Everyones left
Everythings gone
And now only I
Am left to remain on
Everythings quiet
Everythings still
All that is left
Is me and my will
Everythings frozen
Everythings stuck
Its me all alone
This is my luck
I am motionless
In this still air
Here am i all alone
Upon me the universe does press
I feel the weight
The wait
All alone
Here am I
On my own.

Seek me in touch
Feel for me
Reach out to me
Trust me
Let your hand meet with my hand
Let your skin meet with my skin
I am right there
Right here
I am tangible
Here I am
Waiting for you
Waiting for only you
What are you waiting for?

I will always love him
It kills me
It chills me
to the bone
should have known
should have known
He will always be my first love
My best love
My worst love
the one who makes me mad
the one that doesn't love me
the one that doesn't call
the one that, sadly, I love always
The one that I love most of all.

Words fall on my hearing ears
Yet I am deaf to their sound
Letters jump at me from the page
Yet their meanings are still paper bound
I feel the blankness settling down
I feel the emptiness all around
The hollow spaces filled with void
The lines are blurred, and all destroyed
I hear the silence screaming out
My voice wants to, but I cannot shout
The nothingness is a chaotic riot
I want to yell and crack the quiet
I wish for silence
I wish for sound
I wish to fly
I feel only the ground

In flameless air I can not breathe
In hopeless love I won't receive
In saddened days I blur my eyes
Emotion is my final demise