You know I still want you

I cling on to your need

Why do I even have the will to hate you

But I still don't see the reason why I love you

Its late and I'm Cold

I look out into the empty street

I want to scream

I want everyone to think I'm crazy

Please take me away

I want locked up and chained

I want everything to be taken away

I'm ******* crazy?

I'm going insane?

Who will see me break?

Why the **** did you leave me?

How could you do this to me?

I ******* hate you

Do I love him or hate him?
Do I want him or need him?
What must I do
When you are all I ever see
all I ever speak
all I ever breathe
Why did you leave me?
This path in my life has never been so confusing
What will be?
And what will never be?
I guess I just have to wait and see

this so called thing is loneliness

has become a friend of mine

with all of the time passing by

my heart has grown empty

i have grown out of thought

I'm out of time

the father clock has broken

the lock in the key wont work this time

my head and heart is out of thought but is still full of emotion

the emotion of sadness and love will never leave my mind

sadness molds who I'm and who I was and who I will become and never be

don't you ever notice one day your going to be alone

i just laugh as everything i once knew it isn't anything anymore

She always says goodbye never a hello

She had a heart that was cold as the late December air

She had a voice but never spoke the words on her mind

She had a mind that always thought such beautiful things

What happened to the girl who I used to see everyday?

Who took all of her color and made all of her pictures grey?

shes at the bottom of the ocean floor waiting to be found

She wants to be the question that cant be answered

She wants everyone to stare and wonder who she is and why she is there

She wanted to be the celebrity of the day

But, instead she scared everyone away

everything always feel so incomplete

why must we fail to succeed our dreams

reaching for the top

sinking to bottom

must try try try

and never fail

everything is losing its touch

the things  i had once know turn to stone

where does it go from here?

the path is confusing

my mind is spinning

everything is failing

another paper

another dream

another dollar

another mind put to waste

another child to send in this brain wash

going up and down and never finding the common ground

letting the right words be told by the wrong people

teaching fear expect for confidence

passing pills

expect for passing grades

kinfies and blades

razor edge feel

becoming into the mind **** of today

I like the people who tend to never speak

always thinking never talking

why do we silence the ones with sense

with knowledge

with emotion

with a sense of love

theyre like rabbits always running away

but from what?

the big shadow of pressure?

with the hate that comes today