how does one escape the ceaseless grip of reminiscing about "what once was," entangled in a web of words and memories? how does one break free from dwelling on the immutable, unable to alter who i once was? amidst the passage of fleeting years, akin to a rapid flutter
elusive, unpredictable, selfish
self-less, clear, calculable
what once was, is
the past is rigid, immutable, ineradicable
fixate on what is in front of you
i've been stuck in the past a lot since coming home from europe. reminiscing on the old me. i miss her. wishing i handled situations differently. wishing i didn't loose who i once was.