Today is leaving promptly
meanwhile
another tomorrow arrives
as
I
write
this

RIGHT NOW
is all you have

Sit still

Listen

Carefully

to that voice that speaks

without words

Five forlorn fugitives stood tall
tall as trees
a fierce firing squad waited..
Their intent?
cutcutcutcutcut

They shot....

all five fell

all except one

he stood alone

eons passed, stars went supernova and yet

there he stood

wondering....

****

I forgot

What
I was
Going
To write

He cried out repeatedly

No one listened

He asked for help on numerous occasions

No one came

He leaped and fell

They mourned the "loss"

Under a trance
He begins to shimmy

He leaves no move unmade
No bead of sweat would he ever trade

For this
His bliss

His lifeblood

His purpose

God help who doesn't feel it

He left his apartment in the city

He found a beautiful oak tree
Deep in the forest
Miles from anything

Up on the very top
he build a treehouse

His friends & companion were all animals

And he lived happily ever after.....

Something quite magical is about to occur
I don't know many details,
but I'll tell you what I heard

Big mama is revolting!
She's had it up to here!
She's tired of humans and
their acting out of fear

Our end will be quick
So swift it will be
Will all humans gone
She'll fill up with glee

The tidal waves are coming...
I've been told to report
Accept your fate, fellow humans
Either you will or you won't

Let leafy leafs lay
All on and under everything.....

Goes well with fall...
Falling, I mean

I don't mean to leannnnnnnnnn

No

No

No

Gnome...

Singing! Singing!

Without a care in the world....

All the leaves and turning
and ready for burning...

A fine balance that now comes into being

Being....is......beguiling

All at once.....the flow comes and goes
Going......going.....gone

There's a dead bird that sits upon a bush

I wonder if he felt anything at the
time of his passing...

I wonder why he died...

I wonder if it had a chance
to produce offspring...

What if it had lived one more day?

I hope his passing was...necessary

The drum that exists within me
is ALIVE

Alive & well....be on the lookout

Wyatt Earp felt the cold sweat
As fear creeped and sneaked up his spine

His fate was sealed, for certain
The grim reaper knew
that he was next in line

As the minutes went on
And the scalpings continued
Oh lord....Earp cried out in concern

Just then a Sioux brave
chopped his head from his body
And threw his carcass in the flames
and watched it burn

Let me sleep for a plethora of ages
if only you would be mine

Let me wander the deserts forsaken by the lack of your figure divine

Let me be buried beneath all the hills with their cavernous caves and high peaks

I pray you, fair goddess, come take my hand
So that both you and I can be complete

"Pesky Humans..."
She thought to herself

After a few minutes of wondering what to do
she leaned over and asked mars

He wasn't very helpful

She cried out to her neighbor Venus,

but she was much too far to be able to hear her

So she just sighed
took a deep breath
shrugged her shoulders
and kept on smiling and being beautiful

"Absurd...this life makes no sense"

He sipped his cafe latte as he continued thinking

"I wish I could make sense of all this..."
"How I wish this all made sense..."

Suddenly he looked up and there she was....

They locked eyes...

Then she was gone...

*Again...

He grins and bears it
I don't know the reason

Day in and day out
season after season

Will this winter approaching
be the last for you, friend?
I hope you find strength
to push through to the end

Breath = Heavy

Life = Uphill

Boulder = Atlas

Grunting = Gravity

Exhaustion = Surrender

*Freedom

He couldn't read or write

but he was sharp
like a tack

This was quite common in his village

the lack of schools
the lack of running water

the absence of basic necessities here was appalling

one night he thought he heard something moving
over by the door where the shoes and sandals were kept

in the morning, he went over to area where he heard
the sound the night before

he scanned around for a few minutes
until he saw it

a black mamba coiled up
sleeping inside one of
his little sisters shoes

Always...
ALWAYS...
*Always make sure...

ATTN: galactic/universal management team

I strongly fear
that I might not be able to continue
the remainder of this next chapter
of my journey on willpower alone

It not enough

I need a committed partner ship

You know I do*

Without it my value system,
code of ethics, morals
and overall sanity
flies out the window

I'm at my breaking point here

I know you could make it happen
if you really wanted to

Please

I urge you to consider my plea
and act accordingly

Thank you for your time

Brief brief!
The clock is a thief
it takes and it takes
all your days, minutes, weeks!

Last I remember
I was still just a boy
playing on swings
and screaming for joy

Now work and bill paying
fills my day, noon & night
grey hairs and back aches
fill my mind up with fright

So....

PLEASE

don't be wasteful
heed this message, dear friends
enjoy life to the fullest
from beginning to end

Brief brief!
The clock is a thief
so don't live with regrets
....
let them go...
...
See?
...
Relief ;-)

Grinch grinch
You are my to command!
You're the foulest creature in all of the land

From far east to west
you scurry about
looking to quench
that insatiable drought

Yet this drought is not real
I'm afraid to report
this invisible scarcity
only serves to distort

Oh Grinch, fair Grinch
you are bound to your ends
I do hope that perhaps one day
you and me can be friends

There's a tree by the edge of a cliff
Where ol Donald sits and wonders what if
should he jump to his death
he's got nothing left
but to hope that his end come quite swift

The sound of the traffic at that hour was completely deafening

She tried to pick herself up
but couldn't

After a few minutes she finally managed to lift herself up
Bruised and bleeding, she limped over to the curb nearby

"Fractured arm, for sure" she thought as she looked around for her phone

She'd been using it only moments before the accident
She spotted it in the middle of the intersection

Crushed into oblivion
  
The car that hit her was long gone
She was lucky to be alive...

Always...
ALWAYS...
Keep both ears wide open...
*And never ignore what you hear...

They never spoke

Both usually arrived at the coffee shop around the same time

Those hours right before the sun arose to share its brilliance with the world

For weeks they would always be the only two people in there that early

One brisk morning the old man glanced over his steaming cup
and spoke to the young man

He looked him dead in his eyes...

Always...
ALWAYS...
keep both eyes wide open
And never ignore what you see

The very next day the old man never arrived

He never saw him again...

Last night  I arrived at the ghastly conclusion
that our species really might be quite doomed

We **** and we pillage for fun, yes we do
and we won't quit until our planet is ruined

I had wished and had hoped
that our kind might make haste
To make world hunger a thing of the past

But alas it won't happen
well just keep on consuming
until our beautiful home is turned to ash

This is an ode to my brothers & sisters
who valiantly tried to save us from ourselves
Although the efforts were noble,
we were doomed from the start,
so I guess we'll see you in hell

Reach high and above
I know that you can
Reach with all of your might

Reach far and beyond
These so called restrictions
That dampen and darken your light

Reach high and so mighty
That people will banter
And journey from miles around

To share in your laughter
To thrill in your vision
Of being the greatest human in town

Xavier kinear had a very long beard
That hung right down to his feet

His neighbors point and children giggle
when crows would build nests underneath

But alas poor kinear
One day gave a scare
To a woman who was mentally ill

She pulled out a mallet
And swung it with malice
Which gave kinear and his crows quite a thrill

Green, green the flow goes quite deep
like water from mountains
that flow unto creeks

It surrounds and astounds
it scratches and claws
it burrows and burrows
inside narrow halls

The halls of my mind
are oozing and rich
with handsome amounts
of wisdom to teach

These copious words
that continually flow
shall continue to gush
until I am no more

Gush, my loves, gush
until I am no more

Every *** has its lid
Or at least that's what I've heard
like every car has it's driver
and every tree has it's bird

Oh how I've waited for mine
How I've pondered and schemed
While heart muscle beckons
and my patience grows lean

every year I get older
every year I grow sad
that my lid is still missing
or possibly dead

All my dreams are but windows
to things that aren't real
and yet I can't help but wonder
why I feel how I feel

Every *** has its lid
Like a drunk needs his ***
I hope it's tonight
when my lid finally comes

He lay in a pool of blood...

More and more people started to crowd around him...

He looked left
Then up

A single tear emerged
Then rolled down his cheek

Not enough time

He mumbled through his teeth as
he groaned from the pain

More light...

More light...

Then he stopped moving completely

His eyes remained fixated in something he had in his hand
as he lay lifeless on the floor

I bet she's sitting down somewhere...eating.
Same as me!

He pondered

Paused

Then continued to...

Then stopped suddenly

He picked up the empty tray in front of him where his burrito just was and hurled it as hard as he could against the wall across from him

He watched it explode into small pieces
In slow motion

His lips began to tremble
he glanced over across the street

A young couple
Holding hands
Smiling

And suddenly it became very apparent to him

Very, VERY APPARENT

He wasn't to make it here

Not if things continued the way they were going

Rather

The way they've always been...

One of these days, he was going to finally hurt himself

Mortally

The thing was he couldn't bring himself to do it
with some kind of self-inflicted wound

Too painful

so he would more than likely fill his pockets with
heavy rocks and jump into the ocean

He couldn't swim after all

All because his prayers for HELP
fell on deaf ears

The creator made him exactly the way he was
so be could ultimately take his own life

He sat by the edge of the water...
watching the seagulls

and just listened...

The defendants' plea is obvious, your honor...

Guilty

I admit it...he said in a serious tone

I...I...
I've forgotten what it is like
to feel a woman's caress across my cheek

I can't recall how it feels to awaken
and have her right next to me

His eyes clench up and start to surrender
tears as he continues

Her sullen figure

Motionless majesty

Mountains, plains and terrains as far as the eyes can see
Did I explore enough?
When it was mine to explore...

Did I?

He looks up

Is there something I could've done differently?

122
I need not
To put others down
I love freely

104
Greet everyone
With a welcoming heart
Be not selfish

108*
I gaze freely
Smiling, recognizing
The you in me

110
All I can see
Is the bright horizon
I walk faster

105
Storm clouds! Ahh
A great thanks to you
I’ve grow stronger

101
Let me count to
Three million and seven
Failures fuel me

102
Rejoice, smile
As you breathe, you learn
Each day, every way

103
Before you give up
Remember these words:
Yes I will, one day

113
It seems I
Lost all direction
On purpose

114
Gross mistake
In assuming limits
To my willpower

121*
Do something. Dare!
Shine, be lucid, leap!
**** it, I exclaim

35
I’m starting to lose
What little patience I have
How much longer?

15
It often eludes
These old eyes have grown weary
I need forgiveness

54
Life beyond breakup
Is desolate and hostile
No love can grow there

55
With such ease you leave
Like a withering violet
I transform, I die

56
I breathe this pale air
Gasping my lungs clamor
For you, for you. You,

47
I can feel nothing
My taste buds are like dead leaves
No light do I see

45
Is she serious?
When will I finally learn?
Oh my trust fades

33
An empty bed waits
An empty room clamors
An empty heart sighs

64
I doubt if I could
Or that I’d really want to
I now know better

70
I am afraid
Of trusting like I once did
Am I ready?

65
I starve for embrace
I’m very low on love
God ****** to hell

34
Is it tomorrow?
Can it be the day after?
Or maybe never.

72
Tearful agony
Replaces where once love was
Thoughts of her are thorns

73
My belly fills up
With resentment and anger
See it in my eyes

31
She thus eludes me
Almost by divine design
I keep searching

69
As usual
The choices that I make
***** in my face

74
Do not judge this book
For the pages have been torn
Just as my heart has

75
Faint now is
The reason to smile and laugh
I pray you, help

76
Scolding water
Is what I feel when couples
Hold hands before me

77
How I hate
That I didn’t hold
And kiss you more

78
I’m tired
This burden pulls
Can’t hold on

79
A blank
Look, is my only
Souvenir, why?

80
It was my fault
I admit it, so
Much guilt

81
Distant
That place; now
Appears

32
Burned in my eyelids
Are the stinging images
That torments my dreams

66
I want to know if
This drought can be over
Its killing me

67
Dare I reason
With this smoldering fire
That will not go out?

16
Brilliantly hurt
My honor dangles, swaying
She swings, for the ****

13*
Let the seas dry out
And the birds lose their songs
True love, come, be mine

No
Not this time

No no no
Not again

I'm not going to lose my cool and transform into an abominable ghoul
and yell at someone I respect for no apparent reason

No

I'm not going to repeatedly punch a wall until I have be rushed to
the emergency room because my hand has swelled up to the size of a baseball mitt

No
**** that

I'm not going to fantasize what it would be like to
put the barrel of a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger

No

No no no

This time

I'm going to look at my fiendish emotional wave
right in the eye

and put it exactly where it belongs

Behind me

109
So ******* lucky
To be the person I am
Be as you are

90
Flying in the air
Notes ebb and flow
So sweetly

124
In her arms
She gently caresses
My beating heart

125
Listen carefully
The universe whispers
Through wind, rain, and heart

126
Frantic I am
Inpatient, frustrated
Reason? Unknown

127
The thoughts, words
Trickle slowly from above
Below and within

119
Unfolding slowly
My buds reach for the sky
And gasp for water

120
Delicate, open
Seeking the next level
My roots deepen

106
Tremendously
Shy, empathic, bold
Beautiful brownie

115
Accepting, gentle
Shrewd, candid, brilliant
Little ‘ol me

116
I’ve come to
Expect; unexpected
Events always

107
I am spring
Shining, bright, lucid
Ready to blossom

112*
I accept you
Exactly as you are
Perfect, flawless, you

68
Is it really true
Many wise ones often
Say: this too shall pass

83
Gently
I stand tall
Roots deep

86
Why not be
Grateful, its
Much easier

87
The less you do
The better off you are
Try it

88
Be like water
Liquid, solid, gas
Genius element

89
If you have
A sense of humor
You’re free

98
Breathe easy
Stride slowly
And smile

84
Don’t mistake
A storm; they
Too have purpose

85
Nothing
Lasts, it
all changes

61
How I wish and dream
That patience was my strong suit
Life can take so long

62
Be not delayed
For failures are roadblocks
Go, take the detour

63
Gentle and pristine
My heart now beats differently
I become serene

57
Be there a thousand
Crisp and amazing sunsets
In your heart and mind

48
And then the sunrise
Extended its warm embrace
To me, finally

50
Don’t feel so alone
you’re not the only person
That is starved for love

43
Don’t believe, that is
If you really want to, then
Nod and smile, then dream

36
Do not doubt the might
That resides within us all
It can move mountains

37
If you allow it
If you release all your doubt
Freedom can be yours

38
Never surrender
That which you hold most precious
Cherish it forever

25
Surely this fierce storm
That is beating down on me
Will pass; like all else

22*
Which path is correct?
You must choose, lead or follow
Go, go, make the leap

95
Resist
The temptation
Of scarcity

96
Family
And friends are
So precious

94
Become like
The trees that give
Tirelessly

19
Have you, we, forgot
Everything since coming down here?
Darkness blinds us all

82
Connect
With one another
We are one

40
Don’t judge your neighbor
For he is also a gift
Of god, just like you

18
Captives, we become
As fear, proudly, pulls the noose
Tighter and tighter

26
Smashing, we break out
Like rain from clouds, we burst through
Our time will come soon

46
Even lepers know
Compassion, where is yours?
Why hide your treasure?

60
Become shining light
Illuminate the darkness
The world needs you

27
Dare to awaken
For this nightmare is soon done
Light will soon rule all

28
Incredibly brave
And amazingly daring
We enter this world

29
Use your mind to build
A world where understanding
Is the only way

52
Don’t you realize
That divided is backwards?
Please please please wake up

2
Who can survive that
Ravenous hunger, that need
To be understood?

53
So many people
Still asleep, still using fear
As their cold pillow

44
My eyes are wide open
I now see life differently
I connect with heart

49
On behalf of all
Living, breathing, loving life
Everywhere; welcome

51*
Let me feel your palm
Let us, together unite
And celebrate love

41
Cornacopia
A living, breathing garden
Our small planet is

24
Why mother earth, why?
Show so much patience and love
to those that hurt you?

10
Garden, lush with life
Flourish, living library
This planet, our home

11
If she had the chance
Forgiveness would not suffice
The things we’ve done
Would be quite difficult to
Understand, earth simply smiles

7*
Is the wind my friend?
Blow, blow! Bring me Seasons
And to others, death

97
Describe
One thing that
Love can’t fix

71
Do my eyes deceive?
Can what lies before me
Be so beautiful?

58
If I were an ant
I’d find a way to carry
All my love for you

39
I’d like to admit
The following: I love you
And I always will

14
Like, simply won’t do
To use, as, just won’t come close
Infinite love; is

12
What container is
Nearly the amount needed
To hold the patience
That is required to fully
Love unconditionally?

20
Gentle flower, shine!
Exude your musk upon me
Sprinkle, slowly, love

21
Brilliant, majestic
Fair friend, you offer loving
Light of life to all

23
Ferociously real
Your love is a wake up call
Why choose me, love, why?

3
Do you, rabbit, love?
In silence it stares at me
Secretly knowing

4
Her skin is warm tea
Gentle, always welcoming
In it I find peace

1*
Delicious as sleep
Without exception; love is
What all hunger for

In every rejection
In every missed call
In every promise not kept
In every lonely night he's had spent by himself
replaying events in head over and over and over

there is opportunity

Light does exist, despite its scarce amounts

He coughs
then spits out a combination of blood,
dirt and naive optimism
while closing his eyes
and fantasizes of how things "once were"

How? he wonders

How can something as delicate as a heart
remain intact  
if it's being continuously attacked by it's environment?
How can one soul maintain
its divinity in the midst
of so much lies and anguish?

He buries his face in his weathered hands one last time
wipes away any residual frustration from his eyes
and continues onward

I am stardust

Only with you for an instant
A brief flash and I'm gone

Leaving here
Will I?
Of course
And so will you

What you are in control of down here
Not much
Except of course.....
How will you be remembered

So why wait?

Get busy living or get busy dieing

I much prefer the sounds of piano concertos to that of nature
Rain, waterfalls, things like that
The whizzing and gyrating motion of notes
pushing silence out of the way is more my style

It always has been

My meticulous way of dealing with the world

It my way of pretending to have control

This ride, as real as it may seem, is exquisitely exhausting

So exhausting

Sunday evening
Around 5ish
The sun readies itself to set
a well earned rest after a long week

Very righteously earned

Right about the same time, the solitude that is now so
familiar to me begins to slowly tip-toe in my direction

It approaches me like a lion stalks a
wounded gazelle

slow at first

then it lunges and grasps onto my jugular

It bites down
HARD

It suffocates the life
the breath
the hard earned oxygen straight out of me

That distinct smell of my sanity sizzling
Sadly I know it all to well

What I wouldn't give to
have a hand to hold as I watch the sunset this evening
The sacrifices I wouldn't make to have a pair
of eyes to greet my own as I awoke every morning
If only my journey here were not such a solitary
one filled with dismay, solitude & misery

Only darkness is there for me
together we welcome the road ahead

Day after day
Month after month
Year after year

It's been a year now

Last year around this same time
I was celebrating my birthday with my now ex-partner

She was extraordinarily gifted

She baked me a cake
and made me a dreamcatcher

Both from scratch

It's been a year now
A year of being alone, grumpy and miserable
A year of dinners by myself at random taquerias
A year of making multiple promises to myself that "I'm gonna be ok"
A year of looking up at the stars when
I get home at night and sighing
A year of looking in the mirror knowing
that I'm not getting any younger
A year of watching other couples hold hands
and remembering what that felt like

I don't know how much more of this I can take

Let me tell you something about this world

This world will eat you up and **** you out, if you let it
And make no mistake, it will try

It will do its damnedest
No one gets a free pass
No one

This world is a cruel and harsh place
I state this simply because...
It’s all I've known for longer than I care to remember
I've lived it

This world will test you, in every possible way
It will twist, it will bend, it will extinguish you, if you let it
Don't let the tone of what I'm saying fool you
Do not misunderstand my words

This world will do anything and everything to you, and that is a fact

The real question is, what are you going to do?
I remember when children used to tease me
at school, I'd run home and tell my mother
She'd say, ”it’s not what they call you, it’s what you answer to.”

It all comes down to a choice; really
Your choice

For despite what this world may do you,
you have in your possession one of the most powerful
tools on this or any other world

The power of choice

The power to choose your destiny, right here, right now

What will you choose?

To take or to give?
To be understood or to understand?
To resent or to forgive?
To live with fear or to live with love?
Because let me tell you something about this world,
on this world, the choice belongs to you