Confused

Confused Aug 2017

Every night I lay awake and play out unrealistic situations in my head
I've built this imaginary world where I live, and love
When in reality I've never lived, and will never love

Confused Aug 2015

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I blame myself for expecting anything.
And I blame myself for crying because I should've known.

Confused Jul 2015

And in a crowded room

Filled with family and friends
He pointed at me and said
Her, the fat one?

And that's when I realized I'm just fat.
I'm nothing besides this fat body.
I'm nothing.

Confused Jan 2015

I don't deserve this

You're too good to me
I love you

Confused Jan 2015

I stared at my body today

It's not pretty but I still love it
And maybe someday someone else will too

Confused Oct 2014

I won't be here

In a years time
your life will be completely different,
and that's scary.

Confused Oct 2014

I'm tired

I'm just going to rest my eyes, forever.