your silence hurts so bad
that i actually start to feel
physically sick

my thoughts feel completely
chaotic and obsessive
often about you

it drains me to act like
everything is fine
but emotionally i feel so tired of it all

i start to put my phone on silent
because i know i can't handle the pain
of waiting for your text

everything else feels numb to me
because all i ever think about
is you

it gets pretty lonely
so lonely that it hurts
and i don't know if i'll get over this feeling

i long for the day
when you tell me it was a mistake
and you want me back

but today is not the day

the distance between us grow further
the words we speak grow shorter
our conversations, once a flowing river
now it's barely a trickle

i remember when we'd talk for hours
now silence fills the spaces
texts from you make my heart soar
but it's quiet now, like a door without a door

i wonder about your day, thoughts, dreams
but asking feels like a shout
are you drifting away ? or am i ?
our connection once so strong, now is weak

i miss you so much, your laugh, your smile
the way you'd talk about things you love
now, each word feels measured
as if our time together is faltering

yet hope lingers in my heart, stubborn
that we might find our way back
for love, tested by time and distance
can bridge any gap, if we give it a chance

so i'll hold onto our memories
hoping this silence is a phase
for even in this quiet, lonely space
my heart still beats for you

as i have said a million times
i will say it a million times again
i love you wholeheartedly
you're my soulmate