You taught me to trust my dreams
now you haunt them
of death
sickness
pain
Is it all from you?

This is my burden
so heavy
he won't let go

my heart
scouring
for space to beat

underneath the rubble
of friendships
relationships
partially fallen

from where does this hope come
or by what is it fueled?

I'm tired
I'm beaten
struggling to breath
from a stench of what was once on fire

I don't know who this person is
lurking out of the shadows
she proceeds with a sharp tongue
cutting down everyone in her path
she appears with comfort
another living inside me
I can't stay long

It's heavy carrying this world
All living with their own demons
yours battling mine
mine battling yours
both suffocating our angels

To my friend.....
to my love.....
To you,

I know not who you are
nor what you are to me
nor what you run from

You avoid the labels
like we have the plague
your hands behind your back
hiding hearts suffocating in your grasp
no one knows they are missing
but you like it that way

to you my love.....
            my friend....
whoever you are,
I'm there
with no name.

Will "I love you be" enough
past temptations of kissing
of holding you tight?
I want this to last
not a second too soon.
Will my carefully crafted words carry you too far?
tempt imagination to run free
lead you through my darkness
where nothing left survives

Will "I love you" be enough
when I've broken your heart
and left you in the cold?
When I'm not warm enough
to breath into you and give you life
When my hands caressing your waist
move effortlessly
unknowingly
to your throat

Can I tell myself "I love you" is enough
when your pain is sent from my hands

You looked at me
tears in your eyes
fear that I would leave.
Love, I never intended
never wanted
anything as much as you.
I'll never leave.

You're spilling secrets
wanting me to go
knowing my honesty
your proclamations
would tear me away

The gifts that you gave me
you pulled from under my feet
and returned what was left from the life before.

You left me a liar
begging on my knees
these handful of lies
they weigh me down
I've drown.

Love,
I never intended
never wanted
anything as much as you.