guilt weighs me down like an anchor weighs a ship down to the sand.

sadness tears me up like a shredder tears the paper, people deem useless.

anger never gets the chance to fill me like water could fill a bucket.

my passiveness leaves me calm when i should be as angry as a hurricane, so all i'm left with, is the mess left right after.

and i'm still left with apologies, like a cheating boy is left with all his reasons, but i'm really only cheating by feeling no need to yell or fight, for my side of the story; i'll let you win like the sun let's the clouds win the sky.

yet you don't need that, you need me to bring my foot down like the storm needs the lightning to warn others of it's terror.

and i will just be confused, because i'm sorry that i am feeling guilty, for feeling sad because i can't feel that anger towards you, so all i have are these apologies, for cheating life's emotions, that let you win my mind every time, and push in these thoughts and voices that can so easily take over, cause i simply can't put my foot down with them either.

i'm sorry i ever let you in.

be like water.
still and calm as a pond.
strong and harsh as a storm.
even when it all feels like mud.

how is it that you can be there for somebody every **** time, but the one chance the roles are reversed

*it's suddenly every bit different.

my heart is so heavy beating a mile a minute. my mind is so crowded the thoughts are flying by within seconds. my soul is so torn between emotion and logic; what's real, what's not? does he love me? will this rot? i hope not.
but my feet feel like they've been put on lock. my fists are clenched, just as my lips are shut, and though i feel i know all the answers, still; i leave the spaces blank and unknown.

sing me a melody like the one's i used to know, where we would dream about the little things and sing about the snow, where we'd wake up every morning with a bright smile on our faces, knowing we had some place to call home.