Nolan Bucsis

Nolan Bucsis 17h

Ascetic

A holy man
Will eschew possessions
And money,
For things he gives
Freely,
And things he should
Ask for pay.

Freed
From
The falsity
Of financed.

Nolan Bucsis 18h

Elsewhere.

I'm still out there,
Dying on that
Lonely cold
Highway.

Everything,
A temporary reprieve
From eatin out the trash can
Chased outta everywhere,
Some kinda mad man
Of God,
Exiled
Into the ditch.

Fear and four hours of
Sleep.

The simple routine
Of walk until you
Can't,
Eat what you can
On the way to nowhere.

Everyone is an enemy
You just ain't fallen out with
Yet.

But there's time,
Wasting it to get closer
To going to bed,
Just to do it all
Over again.

Everyday collapsing
Into itself.

Freedom I guess they call it,
Broken knees,
Withered back,
And going somewhere that's
Nowhere,
But elsewhere
From here.

Nolan Bucsis 1d

Personal Bubble

I'm
Resigned
To the twenty feet that
Surround me.

In here
In the sovereignty
Of my individual
Space,
I keep
You out.

You,
A burden,
An expectation,
Obligatory person.

But I owe
Nothing
To God,
Go be pro social
Somewhere else.

Nolan Bucsis 1d

Clarity

In the
Silence,
I can't think.

My mind drifts
To hyperactivity,
And I paint
Stories,
Into the
Darkness.

I can't help but
Create
A cacophony
Of condensed
Creative
Calamities.

Nothing is
Still.

Permutated
and disturbed.

Inside
me.

Everything is a disordered
Dysregulated
Delusional
Delirium.

To distract myself
From living.

No one ever
Knows
When you keep
Yourself
To yourself.

And,
I'm not looking
For a cure.

Just a couple
Couplets
To express
The thought.

Nolan Bucsis 5d

Loki

And
They're always there,
Perpetually dancing
In an ecstatic composition.

And
There is no end.

Even when their bodies
Break and curl
Into rotten force.

Still they move.

They cannot stop.

And I am
Always observing,
Choosing the playlist.

Nolan Bucsis 6d

The New Jerusalem

And if you look
Hard enough
Into tomorrow
You will see the
Future,
I will create.

Not out of hope.

Not out of love.

But out of persistence
In failure
And the strength
Of disobedience.

I am not a ray of light.

I am
A
Cataclysm.

Nolan Bucsis 6d

Demonic Despair

My soul is in
Tatters,
Disheveled,
Run down
And *****.

Fear and defiance
Hold it together.

And,
As I cross the chasm
It keeps together.

Not by my will,
I destroyed it,
But out of the intensity
Of its
Fury.