I laid there thinking of you
Dreaming of you
To only open my eyes and see that it was you
Breathing on my neck
In order for me to breathe you in
Taste your sweetness from the inside
Your innermost feelings penetrated my skin,
Through your breath.
And the way the sun looked behind your head
Shining, gleaming, like steam from a ***
Oh yes, you still make me sweat.
And your sweat mixed with mine is like every great love potion combined
Concocting sweet memories and love sick tendencies
Making me want you,
To tell me how you love me.
And the way your hands fit over mine, like perfect stencils of art made
because even then our bodies together make the most beautiful shapes
and not in the dirtiest of ways, but rather the innocent
the way we cuddle, hug  and love its simply
amazing
the way you trace the hairs on my head, the hairs on my neck the hairs on my arms all the way down the nonexistent hairs on my leg, only for you so that the ride down is smooth
smooth like your words that flow through my ears and tickle my nerves in every neuronal-space
that transmit through every fiber of my body and speak to every muscle telling me to tense
when I hear you whisper, “chill”.
And every time your fingertips imprint themselves on my skin
I know that those will forever be mine, for those fingertips are forever yours on me
On me I find your scent, your sweat, your fingerprints, your love
Is all around me, I can feel it when you align your cheeks with mine.
The way you rub your stubble filled chin through each dip and dent of my chin neck and chest.
The way your breaths somehow coincide with mine.
We are one and I realize the moment that I open my eyes
It’s not some dream my child-like, little girl, cutesy self is making
But those are your eyes I look into with the sun shining down
And your arms that hold me tight
And your breath that I long to feel at night.

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These words aren't coming as easy as they used to
But maybe that's because they aren't used to you
not being here the way i wish you could be
I mean, you're here, you're present, but maybe it's just me.

And I wish I was as poetically sound as you are
But, come on now, I'm just so **** far
From where you're coming from
This is not even funny, it's silly, it's dumb.

But what I miss about you being here
is that you were here to be near
near for me, near for us
It was you being selfless so I wouldn't fuss.

But, again, as I really hate to say
It is a cycle, and we can't seem to get away.
But I feel like things are looking up, for this time it's freeing,
I hope I'm not the only one seeing
where this could be headed, I hope this is true
that maybe someday soon, I won't have to think about you.

Yet, however, I know this is just a past life
It's a dream I've been living these past years in strife.
But now it's okay because I like where this new thing is going
I realize now that God has been rowing,
the boat of my life is now going strong
i'd rather have you here now as we are, our friendship striving long.

And even though I'm a girl with imagination,
It will never change the real situation
that
No one's gonna love you more than I do.
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