Mary Oliver,
what do I do
now
that I’ve let the soft animal
of my body love
what it loves?

I’d rather walk on my knees
for a hundred miles
through the desert

How do you move on
knowing you have found
the love of your life

the answer is
there is no moving
but
towards her

even now

even whilst standing still

even whilst
apparently
not moving
at all

can’t I just have this life with you?

I miss you
and it feels like filling your lungs
all the way
as if to blow up a balloon
but there’s no balloon

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

Oh to write about it
as if I still had it

Oh I have met you
before
not just in this life
I know the shape of your soul
like a song I was born humming
you are not new to me
you are home

and when you say you hope
to never lose me
as if I’m something
that could slip away

I say
but love
I am yours
I always was
long before the words
before the touch
before time even thought
to bring us together
I was already
on my way to you

I call you my lid
the match to my flame
a rhythm that whispers
the sound of your name

you say you need space
time to just be
but baby the stars still shine
when they’re light-years
away from me

you have one million wings
with me
no promises tied
just love that stands patient
with nothing to hide
& if healing means distance
then take every mile
I’ll wait at the edge
of your shadow
and hope I’ll meet you again
one day
even just
to see you smile

because soulmates don’t vanish
they circle around
& even in silence
your echo is sound
so take all the time
that your spirit might need
I’ll still be your garden,
your shelter, your seed

and if you come back
like I hope that you do
I’ll still be the
me
that’s in love with the
you.

You say you’re a petal
soft, free, and light
not the tree to lean on
in the depth of my night

but I never asked
for a trunk or a tower
just the grace of your heart
& the pull of your power

you call me the flower
but oh I only grew
’cause I had the sun
of being near you

so go where you need
drift with the breeze
find all your truths
and plant your own peace

& if ever the wind
brings you back to my door
I’ll still be the bloom
that you first rooted for.

It’s all become
one long day
since I’ve seen you last
time passes
and then it doesn’t
& in my heart
I’m still there
with you
I still hold your arm
you still pull the car over
on the highway
to kiss me
yes
in my head
I never left
in my head you call me
to say you’re coming
in my heart
I believe it’s true

Oh it tears me apart
rips me up and down
why can’t I just
love what I love
and have it

How to live in
this world
when the world is
wherever
you are

Telling you I miss you
won’t make me miss you less
but my god how much I just
want to tell you
that I miss you
when I breathe in
when I breathe out

You still do to me
what spring does
with the cherry trees

you do it
in every season
my spring
all year long

You tell me
don’t wait for me
live your life
how do you tell
the ocean
to not keep coming back
to the shore

I’m just drunk
& I love you
and I’m sitting here drunk
& I love you

I love you
in full breaths
of air you’ve never
been in
yet I find you
everywhere I turn
you say if
you can’t be
this one thing 
for me
what are we?
I say you are 
one million things
for me
as big as the sky
every star that has yet to
be discovered
yes you are that
we are
everything I‘ve ever
wanted
you are
everything
& I want you
oh love
I want you
anyway I can have you

If I could ask for one thing
I’d say give me
this life with you
give me you

You’re perfect
I call you a poem

Come kiss me
please miss me
hold me like you don’t ever want to break
me
make me
yours.
Come light me like a candle
but I’ll burn for you anyways,
I’m yours anyways.

I miss hearing your voice
it fills my heart
I miss my heart
full of
you
I hope you’re
full of
you

of my time
is in your time
zone
I’m zoned into
wherever you
might
be
you’re not next to
me
that’s for
sure
I come home
wash my hands with
warm
water
turn it into
hot
water
smoke a sigarette
with
s
the sky speaks
of you in
every language
you tried to speak
mine

If my heartbeat could
walk
itself
out
of my chest
it would walk straight
to you
put
you in
your shoes &
walk
you
to me

just give me one day
I can be alone again
after that
but please

For you
I’d be red
I’d be blue
I’d be a shoe
I’d be a hat
I’d be a bed
I’d be a flower
I’d be a shower
I’d be a dress
I’d be a mess
I’d be anything
I’d be everywhere
Would you wear me
if I was a shoe
if I was a hat?
Would you lay down on me like I was your bed?
I’d be the sun
just to kiss you all day.

Panama
hold me
again
day one
unpack what I
held for you all a(long)
flight
been flying for years
to see you waiting
for me
I was never not
waiting for
you

I want to write it clear
morning sky clear, no fog
no fear
how I feel
up and down
I have no steering wheel
just two lungs
both
running in circles
gasping for air
to share
with you

I am used to things
being fragile
but you feel
like soil
like earth
like the ground
I was walking on
all along
and I want to
flip the world
upside down
& hold you up
to the stars
for you deserve
the whole sky
& nothing less

My love for you is like
eight
but turned sideways
it’s endless

Feels like being tied to
a tree
when I want to
fly
I hold you so
high you’re my whole
sky
I dance to the
beat that you
give
you’re my speed
you’re my space
you’re in every step
that I take
you’re my grace
come untie me
& let me
fly
to you
let me stay
ask me to stay
and you’ll never have to ask again