Hello my dearest love,
The moon fell upon my hair and reflected off a light
only visible by You.
If in this life the light fails to reach the center of your
black velvet pupils
remember that my wait is perpetual, my darling.
I have no doubt that you will come.
Fly to me when our incorporeal selves are liberated in a
world of warm snow
and cotton stars
and emphatic love.
I love you.

Your absent presence
lingers heavily beside
me under the moon

and in my lonely
slumber I dream of our souls
finally merging.

Solidity.
Annihilate the frigid stone wall that has
blocked you away from the world of
impassioned feeling and risk, chancing
what could have or would have been.

Solidity.*
Do not be impervious to your hearts
true desires, for I am here awaiting
your return to a world where our
inseverable bond remains just that. Free
yourself from the dark abyss you have
become accustomed to and come find me.

In the fragments of my kaleidoscopic words I mentioned to you in dull letters that I loved you.
Bubbling between the silence of fear and curiosity was the frigid wind.
A leaf passes in the rose scented air.
Could that have been the moment?
Could that have been the ride?
I love you
Words never spoken.
Always
Felt.

How is it that I can taste the certainty of what is utterly uncertain?
My tongue weighs heavily in my swollen mouth.
The words vibrate against my teeth, but
Never
Making
It out.

You smell of sweet wine and fresh mountains.
A mountain is what you are.
My climb is perpetual.
The fall is fatal.
Fatality-
mmm.
Such a lovely word if I am falling with you.
together we will fall.

My body aches with sadness.
It is alone and desolate.
I am not whole.
My beloved is hiding
and he will not find me.
Has he found me?
Perhaps my vision is clouded
with old, broken love I have not erased.
To lie beneath his heavy arm
and to overlap my heart onto his
and to stitch our flesh together
making us one being
is all I long to do, but
my delicate courage is drowning.

My delicate courage is drowning.

Salty eyes — cry, cry.
Fearful mind — where have I been?
Save me from this night…

an infinite sea
has carelessly placed itself
between you and me.

My humdrum life grabs me by the hand
as if to say
"I am here to stay".
If that shall be my destiny,
defiance will accompany me.

And I will always remember
the way Love kissed me good night (farewell),
and never returned.

Gentle wind caressed
my skin, but my hopeful mind
felt your hands instead.

As you crawled out through
the tiny space left of what
could not ever be,

The curvature of
your spine whispered to me a
delicate good-bye;

A good-bye that not
even your gentle mouth could
speak into my eyes.

Somewhere in silence I rested
with collected dust that memories have left behind.
They told me it was all I could have.
They told me there is no meaning.
In the end it will all be as meaningless as dust

For what reason do I wait?
For what reason do I try?

I feel it fading.
It is fading into the vast space
that held words never spoken
and feelings never manifested.

This is where dead end wishes will desiccate my being.
This is where giving up will dismember every limb.
This is where I will have been defeated by life.

I’ll defy the laws
Of uncertainty and fear
Just to touch your skin.

Even

Annihilation
Of life’s existence cannot
Prevent my wait for

You.

There you were tonight lighting the sky with colors of the rainbow
emanating from your peaceful aura.
I felt you.
My entire being was disembodied and life was divided into a physical
and spiritual world.
You and I met in the realm where our incorporeal selves swam.
Warmth fled through my body as you led me toward the charcoal sky.
This is where our strings tied.
This is where you kissed love upon my soul.
This is where I will wait for you, my sweet darling.

Poison is what I
will remain to the poor souls
that I do not love.

In the land of hope
Lies an immobile soul who
Waits for his return.

Perhaps if time spared
my tired heart then I would
be able to love.

if you cannot see me,

look to the moon

for it is there I wait

for you, in bloom.

I wished upon the
moon- and there we were finding
love beneath the sheets.