I tried not to fall in love with your heavenly smile
I tried not to become obsessed with your glorious body
I tried not to faint when I heard your voice
But alas, you fell in love with her heavenly smile
And her glorious body
And her dizzy-making voice
And overlooked me
Like you always have

about a year ago I started self harming. my good friend made me a little stuffed animal to keep close during those lonely times.
I was holding it and felt something in it. I opened it and found this note:
"dear heavenly father,
please watch over nik. let his emotional pain dissapear and his scars fade. help him to forgive himself, please.
amen"
it's honestly the nicest thing I've ever experienced.